Cynthia :: Our Lives :: Siok

2006-09-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

Cynnie has moved on.

2006-09-01T03:35:00.000+08:00

http://lovelie-siokkie.blogspot.com

Relink me. Thanks everyone-

love,
siokkie.

2006-08-31T23:36:00.000+08:00

i had enough.
siok's not gonna cry for the guy who she dont deserved(you must have though the other way round. HAHA)
since this is the case
GOODBYE my dear
I've sent you off for the last time. Embark on a better love journey the nxt time okie.

I SWEAR that i'll tk 1 mth to get over you. I gotta take whatever i have to do it.
We have both wasted 1 year plus together..to realise that we are too different to be together. If occassional vulgarities from me really MATTERS so much to you

im sorry. Definitely not the girl for you.

Neither do i fancy having a bf who treats me like a toy.

*FINAL GOODBYE

and probably my last post here. :)

2006-08-31T04:36:00.000+08:00

Happie or sad cannot be differentiated by a person's tears. Sometimes a person cries because he or she is happie not sad.

My ladies night out tonight. Had lots of fun. Alot to drink. The whole Zouk was filled with HTM people. I even saw my seconday school mates~ Very shocking ones!! Those i thought will not club. My gosh.. Oh and of cause the usuals. =)

I won't say i was very happie to start with. Music was great. Getting into the mood. Quite happie. Laughing @ myself. I was fine till i saw someone. I could't help looking @ her. Was still fine. Till i sat down somewhere and someone said something about all girls being bad and uncaring. That was it.

Not all girls are like this. There are people who really put in effort to try for things. People who really care for people with no other intentions. Then i looked at her. I just couldn't take it. I don't know. I don't hate her because i don't know her. Just couldn't take it that she was better than me =(

Ok things aside. Today's paper. Was OMG WTF BBQ. Really. Reactions of many who came out of the room "ZI BAI SI SIAO LIAO" "NA BEI CHEEBYE" "WAH KNN THAT JACKIE ONG CB" Yes that bad. Screw it.

2006-08-31T00:13:00.000+08:00

dpd paper SUCKS. tmd sucks!
went off at 1050am. Was the 1st few to leave...cos i've got nth to crap and i was feeling sick.
Felt better after having my lunch thus went to have kbox session with the gang!
More pics to be uploaded soon...hehes.

i wonder if you know i'm sick now. why aint i getting the concern i shld get from u...

*will be better tml.

2006-08-30T04:46:00.000+08:00

Seriously. All of you. I mean all of you. Should reallie stop scolding me. Stop reminding me of what all of you said. I know i know i know i know. ARGH I KNOW K? But i'm out of the trap already. Stop telling me. Stop taling to me. Stop reminding me. It's not like as though i'm like the others begging for something k. I know how to draw the line. I know how much is enough. I'm not very persistant in certain things.

I may act dumb but i know what's happening. Don't have to try to tell me. I know every single thing you think i don't. I don't hardcore my computer since young and not even know such simple shit such as ransacking k. Why create trouble when i shouldn't even be in that trouble. Finding trouble for myself? That's what i am good at. But i know when to avoid k.

Don't question my ethics when you don't put yourself into my shoes. Yes i was being a bitch doing things to piss people off. Actually just her. But i do feel bad for what i have said k. But i have something called pride that blinds me from apologizing. Why i didn't stop everything back then was due to my own pleasures and the wrong interest. Ah but whatever. To stop it from haunting me. I'm sorry i was such a bitch. Now fck off and stop bugging me.

I owe many people apologies and thanks. Thanks Jia Yi, Meiying, Da Shao, Merv, Willy, Ken, Shaun, Tat Ming, Sam for caring. Sorry Merv for not listening to your advices yesterday. Thanks myself for being such a gosu in predicting things =X Greatest apologies to people i defied. Oxy, MeiYing, Merv, Shaun, XB, Herman. Many more. Can't really remember. Oh ya and myself too =X Apologies to the many people i took for granted as well. Basically the whole #mVp people. I mean our people not those stupid pubs. And Siokkie! I think i owe you alot. All the time i spent in games and not going out with you. I will make it up to you!

AND ONCE AGAIN. IM REALLIE NOT BLINDED!! Trust me k. The -wtf mode is over le! His imba troll got pwned and the blinding effect has worn off =D I can own again! Wheeeee!

2006-08-29T02:31:00.000+08:00

I really don't understand.
9pm - eMoWandeRzmiAEd
6am - eMoWandeRzsAd
2pm - eMoWandeRziNpAiN
11pm - eMoWandeRzdULaN
I finally understand it all.

Mood swing? No. Actually yes. Fill in the details yourself. I'm too lazy to repeat. No one to give. When one gives the other doesn't take. Simple.

Suffering from withdrawal syndrome. It's damn tough. Awful feeling. Drives me crazy really but don't worry i'm controlling it well. Quite well? I guess. I will be fine soon. Really.

For now i need to be forced to study instead of dota! I need someone to sit me down force these information into my head. Seriously. Anyone wanna volunteer staying over at my house just to force me to study? PLEASE???????

Just Fuck Off.

2006-08-29T01:04:00.000+08:00

i cant concentrate. i cant focus. HELP!!!
but i wont give up! I'll chiong all the way tml non stop. *chiongx3!

did you ever realised that 26th for this month was over? haha.
nevertheless, i'll love you...
for the many many 26th's we are gonna have.

i hope you'll feel the same way as i do. =)

totally in love with lee hom's songs. BLAME IT ON MUN FOR LENDING MEE THE CONCERT DVD LAR!!!

its been a loooooong time since someone sang me to sleep...
my favourite songs. especially~

what's wrong with MEE today!!! ARGH.

2006-08-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

i'm supposed to start my hardcore mugging NOW.
BUT...sighs!! SO SIAN! I hate DPD lar. grrr
im more of looking forward to my post exam activities. heh heh heh.
Kbox! Go out with lessies! Go pc show with ruie! CHALET!!!

hopefully more than 1/2 of 4e5 turn up for the chalet. i believed there will be!! *^^*

aniwae. Had a damn bad experience shopping in chinatown on sat.
was beside a couple(fat couple lar! tmd) and the girl was the pui pui hiao hiao type.
So i was squatting, trying to choose my charms carefully.

Then that pui char bor turned to her pui bf and told him(quite loudly, since i can hear it)
: the girl beside me is damn bitchy!!

me: turned and looked around. I thought she was refering to WHO. But there's only me beside her lar!

And i got so PISSED off(cos i DID NOT do anything wrong! Neither do i know them) . Yar what i do? I diao them. DIAO, DIAO and DIAOED. Til my eyeballs gonna drop out. Well, i think the bf freaked out or something. he whispered something like "let's go" to the pui char bor.

And so they walked away.

boh liao pple. *shakes head

2006-08-26T06:11:00.000+08:00

6am. Time flies. Really flies. Where do i begin. My life or my game ~>.<~ Maybe i should start from Wednesday. Signed the contract with Fullerton. Orientation on 4th and 5th. Uniform is blue/black. I'm kinda coour blind so i can't differentiate those 2 colours. Blahz. Oh wells it's like starting so damn soon! ARGH!

Anyways met Willy and headed for SMU to support X3M Muggers! Haha. Basically Shan! And of coz FJ. Must mention him since he found my blog =X So we were standing there the whole bunch of us watching the game. Then beside us appeared a figure! I won't mention his name in case he stalks my blog too! Ya he was there! Scary or! Haha! Then after the game we quickly ciao-ed to go Egames.

Ya so we walkwalkwalkwalkwalk damn fast to egames. And when we arrived there... HE WAS THERE TOO! Ahhhhhh! Oh anyways we had ma yu ji @ Albert Street there for dinner. Wooots i tell you i love the ma yu ji! I can have it everyday! So gosu! =D~~~~ Ya then we went back to EG to game! Had friendly 4v4! Cloud scammed us to random then they all picked! Damnit. But it was a very exciting game. The throne was left with 50 life. ARGH! But it was by far the most exciting game i had in months.

I guess ever since the end of WCG. After some incidents and probably the stress i am going through now i'm throwing myself more and more into the game. Playing everynight pub or match like non stop. So unlike me the past few months. Ask me to play dota and i will whine @ u the whole night =X LOL! Not to mention in the game. Hehe.

Oh yeah then the next day me, solar and some xqr ppl were playing pub. Then.. HE joined our game! SoLaR was down in scourge then.. HE came up to sentinel. Our reactions were damn funny. "AHHH WHY IS HE ON SENTINEL ASK SOLAR KICK TELL HIM DONT START GAME PLS!!" Haha. Damn funny la. Then he was using a stalker hero somemore! Damn funny =X I guess if he was more friendly it would be much much better!

And so i mugged through the whole of last night. Getting 2 hours sleep before my paper. I don't wish to say much about the paper. I'm just praying. Lunch with shoury and d. Went home and slept for like 1 hour. Then i headed to Bugis to meet my qing ai de. Had steamboat. Today's steamboat is the most gosu la. Tom Yum and Suan Chai. Seriously you all should try it. Freaking gosu! We ate for like 1 hour plus before heading for our movie.

Sheesh. Don't watch Ghost Game. I find that it's quite stupid. And the last part is GROSSSS! I hate gross show =X Ewwwwwww k. Wanted to ton somewhere. But solar on hearing there were many people going to merv's house he didn't feel like going unless he go home and take his cards. Blahz. Dej and eter who were supposed to go drinking with me psed me! And so i didn't go to bedok jetty! Was so in the mood for it la! Damnit. So we came home and played pub! -wtf rocks!! Damn fun. And yes the BM spree has begun. Long time never BM others le =X Lalala!

And somehow only having 3 hours of sleep and so much activities i am still so awake! Help meeee!!!

2006-08-23T03:29:00.000+08:00

Trying to concentrate my thoughts abit. Being sick doesn't help but make me feel worse from the current situation. Being too sneaky and clever doesn't help either. Why do i have to be so gosu in the wrong way =(

Had a tonning session @ Kane's house on Sat. Finished the martell! Wheeeee. Just spent the night talking and playing cards. Oh ya! Swimming also! Damn funny lahz. Didn't sleep the whole night. Thus my little bit of flu became super flu. Still accompanied him to Kode5.

Nice to see all the x3m-ers there. Got a staff pass =) Was able to sit behind him throughout his games. But was damn sleepy. Saw many familiar faces as usual. Kelly was the emcee for the event. My. She cut her hair. Woots. But still as hot =D Titans won the glory for their team again for cs =) Way to go Shinku!!

Ok fck. My mood is spoilt. Really really spoilt. How could it fcking happen in front of me without me knowing a single shit. Pissed k. How you expect me to trust you when you can't even fcking trust me. Low torlerance when i'm sick. Sorry guys.

i love you.

2006-08-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Dear lord

i know i've been rather disobedient and rebellious all these while. But i need a small request from you. i need STRENGTH to overcome the ordeals i'm facing. i need MOTIVATION to study hard and score an A for my subject.

Let my tears flow no more for this guy, and let me realised what's not yours will never be yours.

Amen.

*even though i'll pretend that i'll move on
you'll always be my baby

2006-08-21T16:56:00.000+08:00

Sick sick sick sick. The lady has fallen ill again. =( I have so much thoughts to blog down. But i guess this isn't the place to do so. Or at least there is no place to do so but in my head. It saves all the trouble of explaining to others.

Never ton before the morning of competition. It's a very horrible feeling. Really.

2006-08-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

BIG FAT SLAB of butter! Yes, its butter. For spreading on the toast! So CUTE and FAT right wahahahas.

and here's daa toast!! SO CUTE hor machiam kids eat 1. I like alot caning! And the super artificial colouring is kaya. They got alot of types of kaya to choose from...got original, pandan, chocolate and the other flavour i 4got ler. Very interesting concept! And the boss very friendly to us also. The toast house is in bugis...somewhere near mac lar.

I THINK i m hungry after looking at all this pics. =\

2006-08-19T12:25:00.000+08:00

WOAHHHHH. Time flies....and yesterday was the last day of our Sem 3.1. And next week will be our exams!! As usual, I'll be studying like real last minute.

Im a happie girl yesterday! Went to tmall after school with ting to get some stuffs of mine. And i bought very nice prettaye prettaye shoes!! Weiting dont be jealous okie =X Da jie wanted to go in the 1st place to have her SAKAE soba(right?) but i dont fancy SAKAE....so she did not join us in the end. wahahahas Nvm we'll have our chilling session very soon right!

OH MAN. so wanted to go for the Westlife's Concert in SG with Mun. BUT I KUKU canot make it lar! Summore i'm pitifully broke. BOOO BOOOs =( But yay! So excited...i'm heading chinatown with yiwei to get LOADS and LOADS of charms and pieces to make jewelleries. And caiyun da sao! When are you gonna bring mee to the cheap cheap ktv which you've mentioned? HAHAHAs....Angela and ting...kbox after exams also okie!! Usual KTV gang also! after final papers okie? Weiying meiyin xubin! Stupid lessies...when are you babes ever free to hangout 2gether! Lim seng hee aka my brather...dont be down liao okie. you still have gt frens lyk us to be with you! :) Sta maria cynthia...its impossible to drag you outta ur hse but mabbe we can go on double date nxt time! X) mingfeng...saga seeds picking with ur korkor after my exams okie! gohmingruiee....dont so fast lvl up can! We have loads things to do 2gether...kbox! fishing! Go bangkok! Go Msia(my mum say 1 lols)! shopping @ ikea!

im pretty satisfied with my OB coursework grades though i still dont like her. Jiayou siokkie!! Dont let the damned DPD pull you down.

i hate proud conceited bitches. Dont fucking mess around with mee. :)

2006-08-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

This is horrible. I started out wanting to blog since last night. But each time i complete 1 para someone will ask me play match or help them pwn ppl. Now after my long cold bath my head just isn't working. I think i was feeling disappointed in myself. For being what i am now.

I made someone really worry though i assured the person many many times. I wish that you could understand how i feel and know what i was going through. I know these past 6 months was one hell of a rocky ride but believe me i'm sorting things out. I can't give you the assurance that you want. You want to know who i am with. I can't show you one. Coz i myself don't know who can i show you. Sorry. =(

Walking to school this afternoon. My pod playing Snow Patrol's Run. My mind flew back to months ago. I have so much to say but i can't type it out. I wish i wasn't living such a big lie for a life. =( But i do feel bad for the lost friendship. I made a wrong choice but i can't turn back. Apologies to you know who you are.

I haven't had a totally pwnage game for a damn long time. And thanks to Ray i had one uber gosu game just now. Was helping him trash some guys who kept picking on him in game. We played a 3v4. My side 3 oppo 4. Me darling and Ray. Gosu lahz. My viper was totally pwning in the lane. I holyshitted btw =) Lvl 7 i was on mega kill already! Wheeee. The ds and thd were like only lvl 2 and 3. LOL! Pwnted. Darling was doing very well with his Chen also. Really felt damn happie after that game.

Right now im contemplating whether to go clubbing tomorrow. I kinda just wanna go drink and chill out somewhere. Had a chillout session with darling and his friends last night. Oh before that, we went to Tamp to find a game that he wants. We saw it going at 99 in town. 95 @ century. So we returned to Century. Guess who i saw at the shop. SHAFRIL! Ok i was like GOT DISCOUNT NOT!??????? Then darling said "Funan selling 89 leh" Then Shafril was like "Ok i sell you 88" Haha! So fast settled liao k. Gosu man!

Ok then we walked over to Zen's house. Not really far. Zen's house is like gosu la. He stays alone. His room is like black and white. They ordered pizza. Woots. Nice nice nice. Then we had fondue! Damn fun la. We all sit there and talk so much nonsense. And of coz there was alcohol! Thanks to Winnie! Gosu lahz. Martell and red wine. WOOOTS OR! Played a little bit of cards and continued our nonsensical talk. My luck was real bad. There was like 1 bowl of strawberries. Me and darling were like playing 1v1 daidee, poker and bj. I ate like 3/4 of the bowl la. Can't believe my luck =(

Haha. Then we talk and talk until 2am. T.T Then they are planning another hang out session on Saturday. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee. This time more alcohol! =) Can't wait! And i somehow became part of them =X

Now time to go back and update my merchant blog. Girls please do check out http://exquisitelyours.blogspot.com

Will you still love me in the morning?

2006-08-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

wtfffff. my worst nightmare came true at 9.40am this morning.
I'VE GOT DIRECTION topic FOR MY FRENCH SPEAKING TEST!!!!!!

And when i came out of the room, my 1st sentence to whoever i saw was: woahh, fuck.

many should know that all students taking french HATES "direction". Its difficult and so boring. That i couldnt be bothered to prepare for this topic. I thought i won't be so suay lar...got 4 topics wont kena direction 1! The other 3 topics which i SO MUCH wanna get was: Making conversation, Cafe and Hotel.

but damned. What lucky hands i have to pick that piece of paper. I SWEAR i GASPED so loud that Mdm Bich thought what had happened.

less than 5 mins to prepare, and I just had to stare at my french book. How am i supposed to memorise the sentences in only such little time!!!!

So after the so HENG weiting(she got cafe lar!), it was my turn. Rest of the story was crap and i'm doomed for french speaking test. My tutor asked me about the directions to take and blah blah blah(catch no balls lar!) and my reply was: Sorry, dont understand. Next qns pls.

And tila point I finally reply her in french....to take a cab to her destination. I should have recorded down her expression when she heard this. Scared mee out of my life =X

And the GRACE behind mee was laughing lar. Thanks arh...
au revoir french. The best way to flunk a french test!

Must be i 4got to bring my lucky charm(little tinkerbell) that's why i'm SO SUAY today.

2006-08-16T16:48:00.000+08:00

Alot of worries and doubts flood my mind. I told myself i wouldn't care but yet i cared. The future seems so dull. Is this really what i want I really don't know. I'm left with little time to decide. Everyone is pressuring me. There are just so many opportunity costs. I don't know which to forgo.

Everyone around me seems to be getting married or have marriage plans. It's just so irritating. At the age of 19. I feel so young. Life has so many turns. Is it so easy to settle for one and be contented? I always feel that humans are never contented. Just like myself i'm not contented with anything. Maybe just contented that i'm quite happy.

In an era like now. Multiple loves are so common let alone flings. How sure are you that your other half is not cheating on you? Not to hint to any of you that your other half is cheating on you =X But i seen too much. Not just guys even girls are cheating on their man. And don't look at me.

Somehow my awfully bad temper just found its way back to me again. I have been screaming at almost everyone who pisses me off. Teammates, parents, bf. I wish i was older then i can shift out to be alone. I want to do anything i want without anyone commenting or nagging. I wish i could be more appreciated. Realise that people only remember you for the wrongs and bads you did but never ever remember the good. Now this is what i call fcked up.

I seem to have 101 things to whine about. But i guess i was just bored and had nothing to do. And now there's a CS match. Time to go pwn some sorry asses.

2006-08-16T02:29:00.000+08:00

Seems like weeks that i last blogged. WCG flew past us. This year is a big upset. Expected winners were not on the podium. Expected wins became losses. Major upset. At least my darling got a 4th. Alot of thoughts but i shall be as brief as possible.

Sat was quite a sad day.... Still trying to accept our losses. Went to ECP to have some farewell dinner for that nerdy cow who was leaving for his greenie aussieland on Monady. Afterwhich the night was spent @ Suntec for overnight gaming. It's really funny to see duckie and darling bad mannering each other. Jokes.

Oh wells while they played among themselves I was just hanging around with Tofu. Tofu that basket who lost to me 21 1 in dai dee still refuses to take off his underpants as promised. =X Spent the night playing poker, bj and dai dee with him. Kinda feels weird. He seems upset over his loss as well. =( Had a friendly match with Shinigami again -.-" me, ant, tofu, dawn and virus. I don't know how to express how i felt about being beside tofu.

No big celebrations on Sunday except for Mi2. Gratz leong, shoury and jia bao for winning it. This WCG certainly made and broke ppl's dreams and careers. Many teams rearranging their line up for the next competition. Think this might be the end of mine. On a lighter note managed to catch hoodwinked that night with my dearest. Quite an expected show. Blahz.

Monday and Tuesday were spent going to school for like half an hour each -.-" Freaking waste of my damn time. Had Sakura for dinner just now. Long time since i had dinner with merv and company. Then went game hunting with dearie. Freak show the game he was finding cost like 100 bucks. wdf or.

Oh and i don't understand why there are like more and more idiots trying to gain attention. That time was that dumb bitch. She found a better target to pick on when she found out i'm not a nice person to fck arnd with. Now is some guy who is so damn cocky that i just wanna remind him how i pwned in my lane where he was. damnit. Retards..

Life is filled with ups and downs for me. But i'm glad i have my precious by my side. Those closer to me would know how i'm feeling. But don't worry. I am fine and happie. Stop worrying please.

2006-08-15T16:21:00.000+08:00

i think i need hundreds and thousands of lucky charms tml for my french speaking test. More clover leaves for mee pls!

And i'm gonna bring my toy charm(little tinkerbell) tml and put it on the table during the french test. Hope mdm bich wont mind that. HAHA it always work. X)

AND I freaking forgot the time slot of my test tml! chua wei ting where are youuuuuu....pls come and save siokkie!

2006-08-15T02:03:00.005+08:00

bumped into my friend's blog and viewed her recent wedding photos!
So steady lar. 22 years old can get married and be tai tai liao. LOL
But her wedding gowns....you know lar. typical singaporean female wedding gowns. *boring!

If i am to pick a wedding gown...*my mind wanders off
I want the ma xiao ling type of wedding gown! So different from the normal type k! Mini skirt wedding gown with super long veils at the back. AH HAR X)

im so crapping. Wed's moi french speaking test! So dreading it...je parle francais unpeu! SIOKKIE MUST JIAYOU FOR FRENCH.....gogogogogogo!

been bz selling stuffs recently. Thanks for the support from all my friends, my family(keep finding things for me to sell! -.-) and of cos, my aiai who can help mee do meet ups in the west. LOL! more to come yar! keep Lovelie Indulgence updated! :)

2006-08-14T02:47:00.000+08:00

zZZ. I wanted to blog. Some people told me some stuff. I don't know to be happy or feel what seriously. I mean after all these months you come and tell me this and expect me to do something. I don't know what to do. I don't even know wad to say. zzzzzz. I kinda feel bad now.. But i can't do anything.. Blog more tomorrow.

2006-08-12T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hei Se Hui Lao Da and his secretary. LOL

i so love business atires and formals. *rolls my eyes

siokkie and ruie waiting for MRT cos they cant squeezed in the previous train! T.T

So surprised and shocked @ this pic. Cos this was taken @ my reflection in the tunnel by the mrt door and its all black! whie the pic turned out to have colour. weird hur~

2006-08-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

Lovelie Indulgence now @

http://lovelieindulgence.blogspot.com

Moved site. Duo Duo Support!

love,
siokkie,

2006-08-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

Ah. Lying back on my chair hugging my soft toy and having a glass of wine. Nothing beats this feeling. A long hectic day today and a even longer one tomorrow. Shall not blog much. Reallie super tired now. Thinking about my parents pisses me off. Hai =(

My eye's better. Somehow my left eye hurts more than my right -.-" Weird but whatever. Getting giddy strikes now and then with a real weird feeling in my head. ZZZZZZ. I better bring some painkillers tomorrow in case of anything.

Lots of unexpectable things that happened. Oxy > Toi. Wind > Klonoa + Pum. Jovi > Bay. Jovi > Cow. Top 4 goes to solar, oxy, jovi and fly. Gratz darling for making it so far! 2 more games tomorrow. Jia you k.

You know i kinda dread interviews nowadays. That 15 mins shoot for Channel News Asia took 3 hours. Magazines interviews are so much easier. Just talk and they write and take 101 pics of u. Wheeeee. I remember for this live show i was supposed to reach the place @ 8am. T.T And tomorrow supposed to reach Suntec @ 8.30. My tiannnnnnnnn......

Tomorrow's the big day. What we have been training all year for. 4 games. Our fate in the gaming scene is decided tomorrow. I just pray that my SK doesn't miss stuns and that all my epi will come out successfully chiochio one. If i am so fated with Enigma which i actually prefer over SK. I hope all my BH is chio chio and not stopped and that all my stuns are nicely followed. Team work! GO GO GIRLS!! [X3M] asterisk* ftw! We will pwnnnnnnnnn. Maybe this will also be my last appearance. =( Oh wells we shall see.

2006-08-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

1.what kind of first impression do you think peoplesay when they first see you?
2 very different types - chao ah lian / sporty.

2. what's one thing you like to do alone?
I dont like to do things ALONE!

3. what is your favorite line to say when you're drunk?
probably something lyk "am i drunk?"

4. how many drinks do u need before u get tipsy?
Arnd 6 i guess. and KO!

5. Do you have any purpose for living?
Yes! what purpose i dont noe. X)

6. what kind of books do you like to read?
Magazines counted anot. wahahahas

7. do you think you're cute?
of course! cute babe! =X

8. do you have a problem changing clothes in frontof your friends?
Only girlie friends lar! then no prob.

9. what do you eat/drink when you raid the fridge atnight?
Junks. ALL THE JUNKS! and mabbe maggie mee.

10. describe your bed?
Comfy and colourful.

11. spontaneous or planned?
Both!!

12. do you know how to play poker?
Yeah of course.

13. what do you carry with you at all times?
Moi hp, eyeliner, comb and mirror.

14. what do you miss most about being a kid?
Everything. Its great to be a kid. sighs!

15. are you happy with your given name?
OH you mean siokkie?? y not happy sia. i like!

16. what color is your bedroom?
White

17. have you ever been in a play?
Previously, yes.

18. do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
Yeapp. I've got a high self confidence and esteem. High internal locus of control. HA

19. do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
I'm nice to pple who's nice to mee. :)

20. do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends?
I think i spend equal time with all! Since i only meet him during the wkends =
21. what's one thing you wish you could do butcan't?
scuba diving!

22. what is your ideal wedding location?
Wedding in Sg, Honeymoon in Europe =X

23. whats one instrument you wish you could play?
i'm sick of playing instruments.

24. whats one language you want to learn?
Italian.

25. have you ever pierced your body parts?- ears. haha

26. do you have any tattoos?- eyebrow tattoo counted? LOL!

27. what's one trait you hate in a person?
Guys: ungentleman!
Girls: conceitness

28. do you consider yourself materialistic?
HAHAHA....let others answer this qns =X

29. what do you cook best?
Maggie mee! fast to cook, gd to eat!

cham liao. supposed to study ticketing. BUT! haiss~. no mood to study lar! i guess i will always be the last minute type of char bor. HEH

2006-08-09T15:13:00.000+08:00

~~i shld learn to be more independant from now on~~
sighs.

what a boring national day this year. No raa raa cheers, no fireworks, no national day atmosphere, no red and white.

Only siokkie staying at home rotting away. never felt so sian before. Sian til wanna cry liao

NOT HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE.

ciao ciao.

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i guessed some of the part on da jie's blog really relates to my case.
Esp. the part on trotter =(

2006-08-09T01:58:00.000+08:00

Ok i'm back to continue my lost blogging. My eye is still hurting but the redness is gone. I can see better than yesterday. So i guess i'm not blind yet! Really felt like i was going blind yesterday. Blah. Hate that feeling =X

Pei-ed him go for job interview. Then we went shopping a little. Hehe came across the moo i was always talking about =X *Story @ the end* My eye was quite bad already so we headed home. Took a long nap but my eye kinda got worse. Darling was nice enough to "carry" me to the nearby clinic @ 10pm. I was like crying non stop from one eye =X Which is like my right eye. Which is like swollen and red like a tomato. I can hardly see from that eye =( So painful lahz!

The doctor was soooo freaking gosu! He dropped like 2 drops of his gosu eye drops on my eye and it felt WOW clear and totally painless. Wooots! But of coz the pain came back after an hour or so. -.-" SO PAINFUL to blink lor. But i guess i'm much better now. Thanks to darling for taking care of me. Never thought you would do so.

Ok back to Sunday. Went for his mom's birthday @ this jap restaurant. The food was uber gosu. There was this raw beef thing called carpaccio. It looks so gross. But yeah i was asked to try it and so i did. BUT THAT DISGUSTING RAW BEEF THING IS UBER GOSU! It tastes beyond godlike. The melt in your mouth feeling. Wah damn gosu lor. There was also this 7 bucks tomato which they say is tomato grown from purely mineral water. It tastes quite good with the salt.

One of the staff of the restaurant was damn funny. The way she talked and served us. Left us all laughing for quite some time. Had The Fullerton Hotel chocolate cake as a finale. Gosu but i think Ritz's Royale Carape pwns all. Anyways had so much chocolate i felt so sick of chocolate =X Also found out that Man Heng is Fullerton's company doctor! Wooots! Hopefully easier MC =P

Went for a midnight movie together after hanging out @ his brother's house. Watched The Click. FREAKING GOSU SHOW. =X Very unexpectable show. Nice nice nice. I give it 9/10! Please go watch it! Somehow i'm still quite suspicious of something that happened that night. With my gosu spying and tracking siklls the facts don't seem very true. But. I guess i shall just ignore.

*Story of the MOOOOOO*
One fine day. Cynnie was feeling bored and went "mooooo moooooooo mooooooooo! I want a mooooooo!" Kane kinda acted out a cow with his hand. Something like this.

Cynnie not being very pleased. Smashed the moo moo. U know the kind of blur cow that goes flat on its fours? =X

And so my moo moo can do so too! So fated with that moo moo k. Exactly the way my story goes =P
And so this is moo moo!

Then i smash it! =X

Haha =X The cow Kane made for Cyn was smashed for a few days before he found a real one for Cynnie =D And now Cynnie is smashing her mooooooo! Wheeeeeee. What a gosu cow story.

2006-08-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

Tough day @ work. Very long nv go work liao...now feel so tired sia. Aching from pain. SOS ah!
Saw Ivy tan @ work just now. She knocked @ the glass pane and i was super shocked to see her lar. Didnt expect her to be around Parkway anyway...and i realised HTM lecturers kinda like to shop around Parkway hur. o.0

And such a coincidence, my Liason Officer is Miss Ivy Tan. Jiu shi her lar! wahahaha. But im pretty glad with this arrangement though. I like her siao siao - ness X)

After my work, i boarded the bus ALONE *cos no 1 pei mee home after work :(
and there was this BIG group of kids. Secondary 4 kids i assumed. HAHA
I was on the bus having face to face seat(you shld know what's that!)and right in front of mee was this pair of couple together with the bunch of kids. They were so sweet lar. The girl was lying on the guys shoulder and they were whispering sweet nothings (i know cos i heard abit!) =X

so sweeeeet lar! Sweet til i smiled widely @ them.
They must have thought i'm mad. wahahahas

Maple's a pretty boring game now. I'm not gonna touch maple anymore. HAHA

Im not gonna get defeated by Ticketing test. I WILL PASS WITH @ LEAST a C+!!!!!
And the same goes for my French test. chua weiting, pls faster practice with mee can!

*poof, gone.

2006-08-08T14:22:00.000+08:00

Wheeeeee. I think i only ate like 2 meals for the past 2 days! =X Oh welllllsssss.. That isn't the main problem. The main concern now is that my eye feels so much better. Thanks to someone for taking care of me! =X

I'm also a proud owner of a moooooo! =D This moo is very special, I guess i will eleborate later. Somehow no mood to blog. Someone is sleeping and his keyboard is very noisy. Taking care of me the whole night without sleeep =) Wheeeeeee..

2006-08-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

I'm so excited about the coming National Day!! *not bcos i've got the NDP tickets/goodie bag

Cos im gonna go on a firework date with someone lar! Properly a nice nice decent dinner before that(hopefully). And after that proceed to watch fireworks! Those BIG BIG fireworks gonna make my heart BOOM BOOM BOOM. An exhilarating sight!!

Down with flu. And i'm gonna work tml. YES, FINALLY working at SCOOPZ tml! Gotta earn some bucks to maintain my high expenses cost right.

*gone
AREthoseDAYS

2006-08-06T11:11:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy. Busy watching tv, busy selling my stuffs, busy doing appraisals, busy chionging BE(haven chiong finish lor!) and busy meeting up with besties.

MI LU BING's daa champion for SUPERBAND!!!! *3 cheers!!! They deserved this title, seriously. So CUTEEEEEEEEE can!

chuaweiting. I demand a kbox session! you better give it to mee FAST =x
jocie ng. When's shopping time!? Always tell me : zao yi tian go " here here there there.." go til where?!
si ying da jie. Long time no catching up and girlie talk liao! When are you gonna organise drunk party o.0
4e5 humans. As most of you would have noe, chalet's after 1 sept but the date not confirm yet. Will bug andrew to faster settle yeah?! LOL *poor andrew.
koh zhicheng. will be damn miraculous if you ever have the time to read this blog entry. HAHA when's dinner treatie coming?
jean mok and van. OIE! 85 supper leh! I want eat bbq stingray with ALOT ALOT ALOT of chilli! X)
sta maria cynthia. take 1 day off your gaming stuff and go shoppinggggg with mee!
goh ming ruieeee. fishing date! i want a fishing dateeeeeee! <3

*satisfy my life full of activities, please.

2006-08-06T03:14:00.000+08:00

Cynnie is still searching for big boxes.. Packing up stuff.. Selling and throwing tons of things.. There are some things i wonder if i should throw.. sell.. or just simply keep. But i guess sad stuff should be kept behind right? I have 2 months to decide....

Wanted to blog about what happened today. But i guess im too tired. Maybe i will do so tomorrow.. Brief summary is that dinner is goooood. Click is a nice show. Wheeeeeee.. And =)

2006-08-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

HIHI!! Cynnie also has her own shop =P Please visit and buy some stuff from... http://exquisitelyours.blogspot.com/ =) Duo duo support k!? And please spread the word!! Hehe!!

2006-08-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

SUPPORT http://retailtherapyonmysite.blogspot.com NOW!!!!

Help mee do advertisements by spreading to all your friends and word of mouth yeah.
MUACKS! I love you all.

*just to clear some stocks. HEH

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thanks to those who made the effort to SMS mee HAPPY BIRTHDAY though it isnt my bday @ all. LOL! Its a very very long ago the misunderstanding...BUT next time wish mee on the actual day lar! Now i feel so weird having more than 15 smses of bday wishes. wahahahas

OKIE LAR for my "birthday wish", i wish that my BE portfolio will be done by tml! *without mee doing it =X

*a beautiful misunderstanding.

2006-08-03T14:13:00.000+08:00

This blog is so contradicting =( Siokkie always blogs happily! I want to blog happily too =P Ok next post k!! Sorry for making this blog so angry =X

K that stupid #W$CT*MW$()Y%EW$Y(W piss me off again. Bloody hell i thought she so peaceful for 2 weeks. Yesterday attack me again. How many people do you wanna go tell that i bullied you. You piss me off way too much. Well now that you're adding my friends into your nonsense. That's it!

The dota community is damn small. Whatever you said can be heard elsewhere. Afterall we all have been friends for months and even years. You to step in like this and telling my friends of 5 - 6 years untrue things about me. Impossible k. They all know me too well. If i buey song anyone i will fcking slap it in your face not go around like some wuss spreading rumours.

This is too much to handle. I shall pass it on to my clan elders to settle it for me. Meanwhile say somemore and my fist will really go on your face.

A cool picture

2006-08-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

2006-08-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

Today siokkie and seng hee went back to their secondary school to visit their very much beloved teachers. Many fond memories and traces were brought to my mind all of a sudden. I really missed the NASS times we peeps had together. The bonding was ultra close, even between both the teachers and the students. And as i stepped into the school which i was closely knitted to once more...after 3 long years of struggles in poly life.

tmd, was stopped by the security lar. But i guessed i was VERY polite enough to him and he actually let us entered with a pass. I heard that alot of pple was not allowed to enter NAS cos of the freaking security guards! Man. NASS got president inside? X)

As soon as i step into the sch, i saw MR FONG. yes, mr fong! He still remembered mee. I think the pai kia image of mee in his brains will nv change LOL. So there's many more which i've talked to. There's Mr Fong, WU LAO SHI, Mdm Siak, Mrs Lim, Ms Zubaidah, Mrs Wong and many others whom i dont remembered the names =X

BUT im so so touched! They actually remembered mee by my NAME!! An ex nas student 3 years ago was still remembered deeply in their heart. My, i must have left a great impact on them during my 4 years of sec sch life.

So we chatted for awhile...and they realised how much i've grown and matured. I was even invited to give a speech during assembly as a role of a EX NASS student. LOL what a joke right. And of course, they asked about the rest of the 4e5 pple. Seemed like every1 else is too busy to pay them a visit other than the Andrew Yeo Si Kai who goes to NAS so often for scouts. HAHA

Some pics taken! Forgot to take with other teachers though OPPS!

This is how the lobby outside the General Office looks like. New addition of many tables and chairs and even a PIANO!

wah kao. Seng hee dunoe how to tk pic 1. Tk when i closed my eyes! PPLE RMB MS ZUBAIDAH?? no change right?! LOL!!

See?? i take for them so nice so professional. And dont you peeps agree the seng hee's dressing got the mi lu bing seh! Copy cat sia =X

Mrs Lim my chem teacher and mee. Both wears green! And i looked tall. =X

Lockers area. I rmbed my locker no. was 52! Shared with weiying lessy and the other locker 38 with Peiwen i THINK. LOL

Siokkie and lessy Meimei in TP! =)

There was 1 young D&T teacher(mr lee) whom i have no idea who he was commented: Wah, you are very eye catching. Last time you looked boring.

WTH!!! I dont even know him for my years in sec sch! He wasnt any of my teachers for my subjects and he mentioned that he recognised and rmbed mee. WHILE seng hee was under him though. haha weird teacher he is. He even gave us his hp number...but i din bother to store it in my hp. i THANKED him for the compliments but insisted that i dont look boring. Just abit of messy with my shirts untucked. HAHA

*lovelie life.

2006-08-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

Today marks the last day of my presentations!!! Yay!! I'm so happie k =) Business Enterprise was fun ^^ Went early then Amanda helped us put star star as pattern. So nice la! Later then i upload the pictures. Lazy to upload now =X Then Fate did our name tags. Very very gosuly nice oso! Long presentation which lasted almost an hour. -.-" But relieved that it's all over!!

DPD was a bitch yesterday. But we ended in 2 hours. Another project i'm so relieved to get over with. OB was done last week with a gosu role play. FBOps done on Monday! Gosu-ed also. SO HAPPIEEEEEE LAAAAAAA!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I feel like ktv-ing and clubbing!! Steffi is not free this week! ARGH STEFFI I HATE U!! =X

Went for further education talk just now. Still thinking where to go. I'm probably going for a business admin major hospi or marketing. UK or Australia. Or maybe just study in Singapore. But argh. I hate this place =X Stress. Pressure. I don't wanna study. =(

Hoho. Then this morning after i left the house there was a power cut off. KNN. I kenna walk down the stairs k. Then then then @ the second floor i encountered this mama cat with her babies drinking milk from her. Basket she stare @ me. =( So scary la. Budden the meows are so damn cute! I want one =( But SOMEONE don't want to catch for me!! After staring @ it for 5 mins it finally siam for me to walk =X Went back there after school but they were not there le! So sad.

And i just like realised it's already 2nd August. Damn fcking fast la. Then the best part is that...... WCG IS NEXT WEEK. Fck. And i'm like turning into Solar's personal assistant. Everyone who wanna ask about him asks me about it. ZZZZ. Like. Where is Kane? Kane got take part? Kane got win? What time Kane reach home? Maybe more like his mama now. -.-"

Oh wells. Line up for World Cyber Games 2006 is as goes. [X3M] Asterisk* : Tammy (furryfish*) + Dawn (pinksheep*) + Shan (flawed*) + Charlene (LeEnEy*) + Me (w4ndeRz*)! Anyways we are grouped in group 5. Honestly it was a godlike bracket! Easy to average opponents in Group 5. Winner will meet Group 2 which is quite average also. If we win we will then meet our horror DsD. Well that's like quarter finals. =)

BUT. Yesterday i got so dishearted. So sad. All hopes crashed. Even though there is still some left. BUT. Team Sacrilege has been added to Group 5. Imagine Xiao Bin telling me that. I was probably screaming @ him. WHY WE SO SUAY ONE. Now group 5 stands @ 5 teams. TeamPTE, ClanSoA, [X3M] Asterisk*, Team Southpark and Team Sacrilege. =( GGC Nation wars we meet SAC. WCG oso meet them. Suay ka lao sai k.

Oh ya. Yesterday i logged onto my msn and found it like uber upside down. All my contacts either mixed up or deleted. I think i kinda know who did it. -.-" Lame ass. Quite pissed. But i guess i can get over it. Lifeless idiot. Anyways i got nothing to hide. Don't know what's your intentions in doing such stuff oso.

2006-08-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

Sometimes or maybe all the time.. I just feel so.. Lost? It's like.. I don't feel it will go on for long. The little things that can make me happie are not happening. The little things that i need to make me feel.. How do i say.. Secured? I don't know. Everything seems to be happening again. The thoughts are back to haunt. I don't wish to remember but it is tough..

2006-07-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

tml marks the end of my last presentation. Hell with the projects and presentations. HAHA
But no. it isnt the end. Its just the beginning of the endless tortures!

BE Portfolio due next week, yet less than 1/2 of the work is done. French speaking test coming up so im in deep shit. 2 more ticketing tests for mee to die for.

when can i let my hair down to enjoy and unwind myself?? i miss the crazy mee...who know nuts about STRESS...who need not face reports and presentations all day long...

i desire for the flambouyant fireworks. Its the only thing that can lighten my heart for this month. =) someone pretty pls pls bring mee to kallang during National Day!

ni bu zai
dang wo zui xu yao ai
ni que bu zai

2006-07-31T19:19:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling weird. Don't know if it's the stress or what. My week is very very very busy. Just done with my FBOps presentation. Tues, Wed and Thurs also have presentation. T.T Also have the further studies talk on Wed. Save me please someone.

Was reminded of someone last night. That scene just appeared in my head after like 2 years. I woke up from my nap after a nightmare of the reenactment. Sheesh. Stuff that you really want to forget tend to stick in your damn mind and haunt u out of no where. I'm really traumatised now. I need a hug. =(

Things aren't getting better. It makes me feel lost too. Why is all these happening out of a sudden? Our lives ain't CS is it? I wish everything could be fine. I know it may seem like a naive and childish thought. Sometimes i think about it. I feel that i'm the root of the problem. =(

2006-07-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

So tired and headache! Just got back from Gamers Fest. The girls have kept me laughing day after day!

Lets start with Friday. We had a long training session @ the room till like 1am. Ant, Tofu and many others were there to coach us and watch us play. We had so many fatal errors on our 5th round i was worse than sian + tired! But some rounds oso quite heng to fatal error =X Like the round Tofu bought 4 bracers and boots for me instead of dagger!! Oh wells. That night was an evidence that girls cannot play while talking on the phone! Charlene was on the phone and she was buying a bracer. Then then then! She sold her current bracer to buy bracer recipe!! Damn funny!!

Then then at gamers fest today! Tammy was on the phone with ice! Then she sold her skadi to buy an ult orb!! Gosu!! The game was quite exciting. Felt weird at first having like 101 people looking @ us play our game. The most exciting part was the enemies chionging for our throne. Was left with one hit. DAMN gan chiong lahz! First time using silencer in a draft game. Starting 3 levels was a bitch having face off with SK/Pugna. Then SK/Morph. Managed to farm quite a bit. After more than an hour of battling the losing game became a winning one. But the guys had to go!! Oh yeah so it was gg!

A part of the chat log from #mVp when i asked them to STFU coz i was trying to blog in peace.
[22:57] iceiceice : blog gosu ice
[22:57] iceiceice : say eter pwns ice
[22:57] sch`bus : blog about me and solar
[22:57] sch`bus : about our intimate affair
[22:58] Eterry`- : blog bout
[22:58] Eterry`- : tofu's preferences
[22:58] Eterry`- : of guys
[22:58] Eterry`- : eg chest hairs

So my weekend as we can see is quite en eventful one with GXL also! GXL is like sit there laugh laugh laugh and listen to the stupid MC keep repeating an idiotic line "I realise most gamer guys have pretty girlfriends. It must be becoz they have fast fingers" He said something like this like 101 times! Funny lahz! The dota community is so small all of us there knows each other. Quite a bit of fun.

Someone made me damn sad today for psing me =( Oh wells at least he had dinner with me even though i felt it was not enough! But oh welllllls. I shall be nice for once. I wan my moo moo k! I wan plenty plenty of soft toys! =D

Went KTV with Kane again that day. Wahahaha! Fun lahz! I went there later so i didn't get to see him drunk. But from the pictures his face was so damn red =X Drunkie! MJ and I had some fun but we both agreed that clubbing was so much better!! Winnie was uber high that night. It was reallie quite funny to see how he protected me that night! Haha. Nice and funny =P And so i had a little to drink. Enough to make me KO on the bed as soon as i hit it.

Becoz of all the KTVs i have been going i'm so hooked onto one song!! Ni Na Me Ai Ta by Li Sheng Jie. So gosu! Ah this brings me onto a topic called love. I totally agree with Ken. Gaming couple is so nice! Look @ the many gaming couples we know. So niceeee. I want also =D Maybe i have it le ba =P

Unconstructive blog entry. Oh wells =P

2006-07-29T17:52:00.000+08:00

can u believe it.
i fell asleep immediately when i reached home just now. Freaking tired lar...slept less than 5 hours yesterday night.

AND CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!
i went back to sch 2day together with ting angela and jociee to practice our Amadeus. Im so proud of ourselves being hardworking students. =X Its a rare sight to see mee back in TP on a saturday noon OKIE. wahahahahas...thank you to the 3 girls for helping mee out when i cant figure things out. Im irritating i noe X)

i hate the weiting for showing mee the spree webbie. Now im so hooked on net shopping! Once again, im pitifully broke and i aint working anymore. Til attachment starts?? T.T

Off to dinner. Tml's a hardcore day...gonna chiong badminton. MY CHEEKS ARE SAGGING!!!! no more fatty food for mee!

i wanna go kbox. ice skate. rollerblade. nass. tennis. pet farm. fishing. bbq and chalets. No, i demand them all. *greedyface

2006-07-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

Today was a good but bad day. I shall touch about the good and leave the bad behind. I don't wanna talk about how someone pissed me off before i went for training. Oh yeah so i went to the room for training today. Somehow i don't reallie like the place. Not used to the mouse and chair and the glass very cold!! The table is so small i keep kicking the wall -.-"

But i had fun. New addition to the girls! Charlene!! My old team mate!! We are united again =) Now known as X3M *. First game against Zenith. Expected to lose. But we didn't lose that bad. I was using SK. My thoughts. Totally pwned by their heroes -.-" My ult just couldn't come out. I could only eat Veno. When i tried to... The silence would come and cancel my ult. ARGH. __ We had BB, QOP, Bane, SK, VS. Seriously my Bane SK combi still suck. Blahz.

Zenith had Zeus, Silencer, RK, Lich, Veno. 4 heroes that will stop all our ults. Grrrrrr. But thankfully we didn't get pwned like 60 0 or something. LOL! I killed ice twice! Wheeeeeeee! But Tofu's zeus was too tofu. Blah ble blu. Oh dearz. But it does feel weird not having sherica with us anymore =(

Second game against PJC's school team. Pwned them =D I got the chance to use Necro at last!!!! Whole GXL those stupid nerds refuse to draft necro for me =( So sad la! Budden we pwned them! Yay!!! Then then we had debrief. Then then FJ sent us back =) Went to have dinner + supper with nooblet Sun.

Ok that was the nice side of my day. On the irritating side is that my life is sad. Really sad. Been so busy. Projects + game + 101 fustrations. Parents have been stressing me quite alot. Sometimes i just wonder why am i living on for. Seems so.. Lost.. Ahhhhhhh. But someone has been there for me. Supporting me and cheering me up. Sitting behind and supporting me for my games, matches and competitions. Thanks alot =)

Oh ya. Do come down to E2Max this Sunday from 4 - 7pm for Singapore Gamers' Association Game Fest. The girls and I will be showcasing DOTA! Do come down for friendly matches with us. If DOTA is not your cup of tea you can challenge the CS girls to a round of CS! =) My first showcase match so do come and support k!!

Someone said i never blogged about him.
[K]aneish - Someone gimme a job pls =) says:
we watch simpsons... then i give u nice sweet brownie muffins! and cause u are a selfish glutton u kick GU off the bed cause u dun wanna share!

- Avril Lavigne - Dont Tell Me -
You held my hand and walked me home, i know
Why you gave me that kiss,
It was something like this, and made me go oh oh.
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears,
Why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough, to take up some of my love.
Guys are so hard to trust.

Did I not tell you that i'm not like that girl?
The one who, who gives it all away.

Did you think that i was gonna give it up to you? (This time)
Did you think that it was something i was gonna do? (And cry)
Don't try to tell me what to do
Don't try to tell me what to say
You're better off that way

Don't think that your charm
And the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants,
I'll have to kick your ass
And make you never forget.

I'm gonna ask to you stop,
I thought i liked you alot,
But im really upset (really upset)
So Get outta my head,
Get off of my bed,
Yeah thats what i said.

Did I not tell you that i'm not like that?
Girl the one who, who throws it all away.

This guilt trip that you put me on
Won't mess me up, i've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

I'm better off alone, anyway..

I so much better off without you stupid jerk. So stop spreading dumb stuff about me. It's so many years later. You had your chance you screwed it and screwed my life. Now screw yourself.

2006-07-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

*wailsssss!!!!

im SO SAD lar. just realised my eyeliner and my black clip is GONE!!
That bourjois eyeliner cost nearing 25 bucks. While the clip costs arnd 3 bucks. What's worst of all is - They are bought very recently. The clip was bought like 5 days ago. WTH

i hate it when i lose the stuffs i like! It just meant that $$$ is wasted. -.-!

what's the point of whining when the things are gone. Can only blame it on myself for being careless. But i thought i still saw it in school just now...*ponders.

NOW i needa get a new eyeliner and black clip. Im super broke ardy lar! sighsss.

Moral of the story: buy a cheaper eyeliner to prevent your heart from crying when its lost.

tml's our OB presentation! Like finally. Get it done and over with it, and i'm left with DPD presentation to settle. ;) though there's many other worries such as BE portfolio, french speaking test, the 2 exams in late august etc.

And i've found a new tv show to be hooked! Ge Dou Tian Wang, Mr Fighter on Chan U 7 - 8pm. If you hate those OU XIANG JU, dont even bother watch it for a min. LOL you'll find familiar characters and leads who have acted in Xi Jie Shao Nian. But i like! =D

Chionging to compile powerpoint now. I wonder what time can i SLEEP tonight.

Support http://www.jolie-femme.blogspot.com now! Its an online shopping site created by a friend of mine. Exquisite and affordable stuffs can be found there. ^^

*My Lovelie Indulgence.

2006-07-26T16:01:00.000+08:00

Don't know what is wrong with me. But i just feel like crying. Maybe becoz too much things has been happening in my life. My life from a boring no one cares life becoming a super exciting eventful life. With the stress from my projects. I'm just gonna break down soon. Or maybe i already am. I cannot take it anymore.

In certain ways i'm quite a perfectionist. This makes my life really tough. Especially when you have people who can't be bothered around you. Even though how hard you try to get them to try to care they just don't. It just seems like you're forcing them. I don't know. I can't read people.

The stress is so taxing.. Until i can't even play for more than 15 mins. It's like 15 minute i was so pissed already. I can't even get myself to enjoy the game and just play it like i always do and laugh @ killing noobs. Argh. I can't even concentrate my thoughts now. Ok i'm bad @ multi tasking! LOL!

On a lighter note.. The girls are registered for WCG. Just gotten approval from Hero to change my nick. Gonna use JuZ4Shinku[X3M]. Shinku its for u k. You better remember what you said. You better don't dua me or imma kill uuuuuuuuuuu. Oh ya Shinku oso told me that that that CS guy IS ONLY 15!!! OMG. I feel so cheated! lol.

Went to watch Mortuary last night. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!! Don't ever watch it! Damn gross la. I just can't stand blood and u know like cutting people up. Yucksssss. Sheesh thinking of it makes me feel ewwwww. Lalalalalala. Then then then ling bought me tarts =D My favorite tarts. aHHHHHHHHH! So gosu la.

Ok i seriously cant multi task.. blog later or something ~>.<~

2006-07-26T12:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th MONTH ANNIVERSARY (i still think its 20th though. lols)
to my dearest ruieeeee. *^^*

more anniversaries to come right?? Its such a pity that we are always too busy to celebrate our anniversaries on the rightful day. Just rmb to leave our 24th mth free k! X)

will be OUT to get some stuffs with seng hee. And mabbe meeting up with da jie siying as well. Groupies, please send the dpd part to my mails and i'll do the final compilation + editing tonight. Group meeting @ 12pm Project room 6 k!

afk to cook maggie mee now. Im sucha maggie mee person -.-!

* love mee hopelessly - I deserve it.
lovelie indulgence

2006-07-26T02:10:00.000+08:00

(Aladdin:) I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when didyou last let your heart decide

(Aladdin:)I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways, and under
On a magic carpet ride

(Aladdin:)A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

(Jasmine:)A whole new world
A dazzling place i never knew
But now from way up here
It's crystal clear
That now i'm in a whole new world
With you(Aladdin:)Now i'm in a whole new world with you

(Jasmine:)Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
(Jasmine:) A whole new world(Aladdin:) Don't you dare close your eyes
(Jasmine:) A hundred thousand things to see(Aladdin:) Hold your breath- it gets better(Jasmine:)I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far I can't go back to where i used to be(Aladdin:) A whole new world
(Aladdin:) With new horrizons to pursue
(both:) I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare, let me share this whole new world with you
(Aladdin:) A whole new world(Jasmine:) A whole new world
(Aladdin:) A new fantastic point of view(Jasmine:) A new fantastic point of view
(Both:) No one to tell us no or where to go(Jasmine:) Or say we're only dreaming
(Aladdin:)a whole new world(Jasmine:)Every turn a surprise
(Aladdin:) With new horizons to pursue(Jasmine:) Every moment gets better
(Both:) I'll chase them anywhere theres time to spare(Jasmine:) Anywhere
(Aladdin:) Theres time to spare
(Jasmine:) Let me share
(Aladdin:) This whole new world
(Both:) With you
(Jasmine:) A whole new world (Aladdin:) A whole new world
(Jasmine:) Thats where we'll be (Aladdin:) Where we will be
(Jasmine:) A thrilling chase (Aladdin:) A wonderous place
(Both:) For you and me

One of the best and greatest songs i've ever known of. Simply LOVE it! In fact, i knew this song since K2 and of course, I knew it by heart now. And i rmbed singing it with a K2 guy friend for a performance night. I forget him and his name though =X But of course! I got to wear a princess costume( to act like the JASMINE) and some super thick make ups lar. That's all i can vaguely remember from my peabrain. Will post the pic if i ever found it in my photo album X)

The princess strikes back! LOL where's the Aladdin and his carpet. o.0

*A whole NEW world with YOU.

2006-07-25T17:45:00.000+08:00

Lalalalala. I think i should go get some good luck charm or some tailsman of evasion to siam away trouble =X Trouble simply love finding me. Wheeeeeeeee. Oh wells that #$%&(@#%(#$%* stopped her nonsense for a while already. The elders told me not to worry too much. I guess its bo chup ftw =D Anyways i pwned her that day. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Like totally! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Ok humble i shouldn't say much k =P

Oh wells. Some idiots. I dunno who lahz. Go say i accuse them of what everyone accuse them for. Lame k lame k lameeeee k. I'm like an x3m member now. I won't go bm my own clan people even though i might be dying inside to do so k. Not so dumb. Unless you offended me badly like SOMEONE. Budden that someone and me now like quite gum! LOL!

Oh! And you guys should be buying toto! Cynnie went to school like on Monday and Tuesday like @ 9am? =D *proud* Haha. OF COZ I WAS FORCED TO! Had presentations! Like on both days. Both went so smoothly as usual =D Happie happie!! I shall post some pics of my OB group with the CCM year 1s! I didn't take any pics with my international class students though.

I don't really remember what else happened in my life. Oh maybe that i have been catching alot of movies! Wheeeeeeeeeee~ Caught Nacho libre on Thursday. Pirates on Sunday. And gonna watch hoodwinked toady!! Pirates is a very very very the nice show! Must watch. The pirate is like so cute la! *drooooooools*

Ok im back on lazy mode. Time for WMW i guess =P Update again lata. Hehehe.

2006-07-24T18:12:00.000+08:00

BE presentation today was rather smooth sailing. Quite good, i would say. Other than the 6 of us freaking out when we couldnt open the dumb excel file. Lagi heng, we managed to open it.

Considering the fact that we only rehearsed TWICE, we were sastified with our perfomance. 1st practice of presentation was disastrous. Powerpoint cocked up, and our speech exceeded the time limit. While the 2nd presentation was a rush. Didnt have ample time to practice in the project room....so chop chop go through it once and up to the tutorial room we go.

THIS IS WHAT I CALL GIRLS POWER. wahahahahahahas X)

K im gonna nap. So exhausted from the rushing for the whole day...more to come when i wake up from my lil nap. T.T!

Some pics for you pple to enjoy.

look @ the unglam sight of my groupies. Fancy taking off their shoes while rehearsing! but noticed my shoes in the pic? =X

Yar, rehearsing diligently.

i lurvee this pic! 6 babes with the funky Mr Govin. LOL

See?? There's alot of cute things to play in TP staff room. Look what they are doing to him o.0!

Us with Mr Warren kok! Yes, he's currently back from TAS. He's so HAPPY to see us! =X
Left to Right: Ailing, Raudah, Candice, Angela, Weiting and Siokkie

LOL a crazy shot by us. And Mr kok was nice enough to be crazy with us. X)

i like this pic too! Cos most of us look presentable in it. And behind us is Mr Desmond Lim. He's taller than mee by a HEAD can!

Another of my favourite lecturer, Ms Grace Chia. She's so cute lar!

*losing my mind.

2006-07-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

double scoop of yam ice cream with logans and whip cream. Fattening oie! But downright deliciousie. Thus, my opportunity cost is my apple cumble. =\

goh ming rui's chocolate whatever sundae. Another tempting one of a kind!

yummy yam ice creammmm! Purple girl must eat purple ice cream. =X

i supposed he enjoyed his ice cream too?? weird expression on his face muahahahas.

stephie yawns. NO, roars. X)

gonna do a short update....im sick of preparing for my presentation. LOL

my sunday's always spent with my dearest fat butt rui. AHHH yar, went to the tmall vincinity and bought alot of stuffs. HIM, not mee okie. HAHA...helped him chose some formal wears and stuffs like that. Was spotted by alot of pple. All the Ex nas pple. All so shy to call out my name! And instead they used sms to say hi. And as what i'e mentioned in the previous post, my eyes aint sharp to recognise familiar pple. Geez

Had a wonderful lunch @ Swensons. Was his treat...since someone has a scholarship bursary mah. X) Forgot to take the pics for our main course. Mine was the sambal grilled fish with seasonal veggies and potatoes. While his was the traditional Fish and chips. Both were great! Swenson's menu really did improve alot. i like! <3

Siokkie is a happiee girl today. Thank you for accompanying and accommodating mee. =) I'm your fussy princess right??

*You are the key to my door of happiness.

2006-07-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

Lalala. Had a little talk with a long time no talk friend. LOL! Oh my. I realise how much i have changed and not changed. 1 thing that certainly never changed since i was like secondary 1 or maybe in primary school but i din notice about it; is that i'm an enemy magnet! Haha! I make more enemies than friends. Sheesh. But seriously nowadays it's way way better k.

Xiang dang nian... When i was still mmo-ing. LOL! Everywhere i go got noobs bugging me or idiots trying to kill me and many crazy people scolding me =P Oh wells. I think 101 people has actually requested for me to stop making enemies =X Includes people like Xiao Bin, Kane & many many lahz.

I guess it's all KC and Prod's fault! So many years spent with them has made me guai lan, xia lan & bad mannered =P But i'm changing k. For someone's sake. Since he always trying to resolve all my issues i should show him some appreciation but not spoiling his friendship with them. =X I kinda put him in a very difficult position many many times. Yeah so for that 2 bitches. Whatever k =P I will be nice for once and pretend nothing ever happened. If we ever encounter again we will play a game in peace k?

Anyways back on earth. GXL went not very right today =( Oh wells. 1h 20 mins cap is dumb. Fcking dumb dumb dumb. Ah nevermind. I guess i will miss all of you. This is like probably my last game with the guys. I really had lots of fun. Each and everyone of you left a deep impression!

Oxy
The xiao didi of the team. Haha. I was fooled by your looks when i first met you 4 months ago. I thought you were like 18 19 year old but.. you turned out to be 15. Haha. I had lots of fun. Your skills are good. Pity you are not continuing to go pro =( I will miss the times we AT-ed together. Remember our 8 - 0 and tower rushers? Damn fun. Most of all i will miss your proness and precise commands in games. Awww. Your sms-es is making me cry! T.T So touching =P

Ken
Bloody hell. You stupid nerd. Time passes so fast man. I know you for like what.. 10 years? See you from small boy till now still looking the same =P From every week go church until everyday go lan shop. Still the same old ken. Better not end up like Winky k. Thanks for tolerating my noobness, emotions and co-organising games with me. Handling many team issues that i wasn't able to do so especially those late emo nights. I will never forget your gosu KOTL lahz! T.T Ball to ks!! Ahhhh! And and your 1.5 hour farming sniper! Can die man..

Coffee
Wheeeeee. Old man of the team. Your hand of god jacket. Really funny =P Always entertaining me and kane with your jokes. You just left a very chen impression upon me. Always seeing u use chen until i think you're a chen! Wheeeeee. I think i have caused you some problems but i hope they have subsided. As i said i am an enemy magnet =P Sorry lehhhhh!

Eter
Thanks for filling up that last player slot at last minute! I think all of us hardly know you when you joined us. But i guess we all adapted quickly and became friends. Always enjoyed laughing @ the nerds who just enjoys walking into our traps especially when we play 1 1 3. Hehehehe!

Cheemengs
Cheeeeebyeeemengsssss. This effing nugget. Very funny. Look @ his face oso laugh. Everytime i think of him i think of merv/mahjong. Still remember that night when we were stuck @ Orchard and you said. "Lets so to mervyn's house. Very long time never go le.. 4 days never go" Can slap you leh! But haha merv's house is like our only saviour on a night when everyone is broke and have no home to return to =P

Oh wells i shall continue other day! Time for PTD! =D

2006-07-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

My encounter with 2 bitches in my life. Continuing from the post i blogged earlier. Oh wells those not interested in my bitchings please proceed to part 2 of my blogging =P

Bitch 1
Fck you lahz. For god's sake do u have any brains? If you wanna bitch about me and act pathetic like i bullied you can u like bitch to people who dont know me. Or did you bitch to people close to me hoping they will side you. zzz. Whatever the case it. Please stop it. Don't make me look like i bullied you when i never even did. I only posted a challenge to you following what you said about yourself. Like. Duhz? Anyways. Ya i know i have an attitude hardly anyone can stand and imba bad manners. So sorry then. But yet again that don't give you the right to act pathetic ktb?

Bitch 2
Oh wells. What else can i say about this pathetic free whore. Stop making yourself look cheap and stop trying to act hero. It gives me an impression and everyone an impression that you're just jealous of what i have. Well little girl. All i can say is. Don't be. Coz i just don't see why there is a point to be. Just because i have something you don't. There's something in life called choices. People make their decision just like people choosing who they want to be with in life. Nothing is perfect. If the relationship has to end it has to end. Just be glad there were happy times. But sometimes you must realise that it might not have even started so how can it end. There is also something called retribution. Oh wells. What matters most now is that i'm happie =) Everything else is secondary. I cbf.

Oh and another bitch i forgot to talk about. Crazy bitch. Go around telling people i blog about her. For fcks sake i blog about who not ur taiji la. Who bothers about u. I'm enjoying myself watching @ u live ur pathetic life trying to get him back to you. Lame k.

- End of bitching stories -

You know you know i handed in like 3 projects this week. Like wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Happpieeeeee =D Hehehehehe! Powerpoint preparation on the way. Next week will be a hectic one with all the presentations to be done. I need a PDA bad. And my dad bought one. But it looks... Bulky =( I guess i will stick to the notepad on my handphone! Hehe.

Haven't been posting pictures so i shall post some nice pictures later! A week ago i was @ Ritz Carlton to attend a gala dinner with sooooolarrrrrr and his classmates. It's nice to have dinner there! It's like a dying desire to do so becoz i worked there before. Saw many familiar faces Azmil and Qian Yi and many others. Then after the dinner we went clubbing! Haha so fun! I think the guys were damn bored taking care of the girls! Had lots of fun with MJ and Donna! The 3 of us were quite high but we reallie enjoyed that night. Haven't had so much fun in a long time.

Before that was like shopping frenzy almost everyday. Going around looking for clothes bag shoes and all! His classmates are some fun people! Even went KTV! Leon and Zac was like wowwwwwwwww. Imba voice! *admires* I want to hear them sing more!! =( And we all started playing games together after that! With his da shao and brother too! Wheeeee! More dota kakis =)

Oh yeah and FForGND is ranked 9th =( Bad play on the last week landed us on some sucky brackets for the finals! ~>.<~ Round of 16 tomorrow @ EG! We will be playing DotAs @ 3.30pm. Good luck nerds!! We will pwn!! I hope.. Haha! GXL posted our replay as ROTW again! Haha. Like the 2nd time le =) *proud* I guess i really had alot of fun playing with all of you. Thanks to all your proness that got me to this stage today. Moments of my life =)

Oh ya... My brother bought an apartment on Sea Ave. And we're like gonna shift in start of November. Quite a nice place. Got pool! Wheeeeeee!! He got a good deal too. 780K. So it's like goodbye housie!

LOL! My solo account =P Still no icons! All my icons gone with my mVp account =(

FForGND ranked 9th on GXL ladder =P

My nerds and our games!

Before any make up~ I look damn pale ~>.<~
After some gosu make up. Wheeeeee.

Oh i find this pic damn nice. LOL! If you ignore those people behind us. It's like some photoshoot right? HAHA!

2006-07-22T16:48:00.000+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYY!!! im happie. H-A-P-P-I-E

cos' i found my favourite lost purple clip a few minutes ago.
A few minutes of happiness, *beams.
More happiness to come, i presume!

2006-07-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

shu zhen jiejie said i've been acting weird and looking distracted recently.
i didnt realised it that til pat smsed mee that im smiling less radiantly. And practically ignored pple whom acknowledged mee in sch or anywhere else.

Im sorry peeps, didnt mean to dao you guys. My eyes aint as sharp as in the past. Next time come straight up to my face and shake mee hard kks. =X

Shant comment too much on my ticketing test. Though i did passed, i got the grades which i deserved. Probably slightly higher than what ive expected. I should learn to love ticketing and amadeus system more, seriously. Im only able to perform when my passion or interest for something is present. Cant imagine life @ Tradewind if i continue hate amadeus. *shakes head

My enterprise presentation is on the following Monday. So fast can!! But its good news too. Get it done and over with it so that we can concentrate on DPD project. Life for a HTM student is never relaxing nor slack. Im gonna stuff carrots and brinjals into the nose of those who felt that HTM students are very free and has nothing to do. Probably force them to eat their own fists as well.

To da jie siying
Im aware that recently you aint as happy as before and there's alot of issues troubling you. But life's like that. There's always a point of time when you are down, and then you realised that the door of happiness is closed. i wont encourage you to be strong, but instead take things naturally and things will pick up as time comes. There's always a limit to one's tolerance of being strong in the reality....just remember that WE will always be with you no matter of good and bad times. =)

Being in a relationship is never as blissful as it seemed. Outsiders can never understand, just as you will never understand your partner's imperfections and your demands for your partner. Love your partner's imperfections, and you will realised imperfections can be turned into a beauty in life.

im back to my contradicting state of mind. Shant think anymore and get started on the NEVERENDING projects.

*Never ask why I love you, just accept that I do, and that I will for the rest of my life.

2006-07-22T02:59:00.000+08:00

Been very very very very short tempered. I cannot take jokes right now. Why? Simply because IM IN A FCKING BAD MOOD. Do you understand? Bad mood. Fcking bad mood. Busy with projects minimal sleep and i hate waiting. Thus im in a fcking bad mood k. I said to you days ago weeks ago. I HATE YOUR JOKES. Understand? I hate lies and deceit k.

2006-07-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

Wow i have so much to say man. But i guess i shall start with the stressful stuff. Been rushing projects these few days. As in reallie rushing kinda thing. Gaming is bad. Especially when i'm supposed to do a project on a comp that has games. LOL! Bad bad stuff. So that also means i have been sleeping like so little these few days. *shagged* Oh wells. Dumped away one project today. 2 more to throw away tomorrow. Another 2 more to throw away the week after next.

Oh to the serious notes. What's wrong with girls these days. Blahz. I can't help but bitch more about SOMEONE. Bloody hell. First she posted a challenge to me. I told her to bring it on. Then she used it against me. Some sort of saying im so mean to her kinda shit. zzzzzz. Fcking bullshit leh. Then go bitch about me to someone close to me. Retarded or?

Oh wells. I'm not supposed to make enemies but i can't help it. I'm a walking enemy magnet. I get enemies wherever i go. But i guess now it's getting lesser. Think back to the days i was still mmo-ing. Almost everyone was my enemy =X Sometimes i think i'm changing. But im always ever changing =(

Hrm. Yeah 2 nights back i had a nightmare. A REALLIE weird one. I dreamt that me and siokkie were having ice cream. CHEESE ICE CREAM which cost like 5 bucks. LOL! Then "H" and "D" was with us. Then she started ignoring me! =X LOL! So weird la!! Damn scary. But i woke up like just in time for school because of that nightmare =P

On a slightly lighter note. I NEED TIME!! GIVE ME MORE TIME PLEASE.. I wanna play dota =( But i have to do my work bla bla bla. So much things la...... i wan 101 hours a day pls =(

2006-07-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

my current favourite show on Chan u 7pm which is ending in 2 more episodes. =

Owen Sophie William Susan. The main leads in the show.

The crystal ball given to Sophie from William, but made by her students. LOL

the slogan of the show. I gonna go search for the OST as well. WAHAHAHA

2006-07-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

FUCK lar. blame mee for fucking everything. For wanting to provide the best for the whole group.

I SHALL NO LONGER FUCKING CARE anymore. cheebye dont understand what ive done and and my feelings.

2006-07-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

fuckingshit lar.

you know, im the kind of person who will flare up easily when things aint done properly. Especially when i trust that someone has done it since words came from the mouth of that person. Im not expecting perfection, but give me something up to standard lar. It just had to happened the day before the stipulated deadlines. WTF.

i swear ive given in my best shot in this project. But bits and pieces of information are missing in other parts. Ting would have know. You know, all the important details jotted down during meetings. And the financial statements are definitely some brain screwing jobs. Seriously aint easy k. Took mee days to finalised the figures and stuffs like that. Especially when the figures gotta change over n over again.

AND NOW?? I was told that the report was edited. It ended up that mee n ting stayed back to edit the whole report despite our sleep deficiency. Someone just feel that what she do is the best. Or her english command is fabulous. Wonderful. That she has a hard time editing our work.

AND the truth is, hers sucks among us. I suggest that she should take up English Language Cambridge o's again. Unbelievable man. No 1 would believed that the report before we edited was as what she said, "edited." Fancy wanting to get things done all by herself while this is a group project work. Bet the whole group grades will be pulled down if we did not edit the report. I still want my good grades if she doesnt want it.

IF she bloody hell changed the stuffs we edited, dont blame mee for getting into a bitch fight. Right now i can only roll my eyes and insist on the right things we should do. Yes im demanding, and i expect to see acceptable hardcopy of our project tml.

Group politics. BLAH. Many closer to mee would know who is SHE. Irksome creature @ project. I hope she will see this blog entry of mine. Im just praying hard that - things will turn for the better.

sighs. more things to trouble...the market near my blk has 2 MAMA cats and they are about to give birth soon. Looks like i gonna be cat nanny for the time being again. Those MAMA cats should be sterilised so that PAPA cats wont go round screwing them up. Majority of the Bedok residents dislike cats so i cant imagine what they are gonna do with the increasing birth rate of the kitties. They've ardy requested the government to put so many cats to sleep in the past...i dont want a repeat of the history again. =(

i want to have my retail therapy sessions! I wanna sing. I wanna blade. I wanna play badminton. So many things i want to do...but the damned projects are obstructing my happiness. 1 more major project down and i'll never need to touch on projects anymore. Siokkie must tahan...

anyone watch the show lui guang shen lin?? On Chan U Wed-Fri 7 to 8pm. So sweet and funny lar HAHA! @ least it made mee laugh for some moments.

*siokkiefied.

Pics supposed to be up like ages ago. HAHA Jocie de birthday @ Hard Rock's!

My apple cobbler's @ Hard Rock. Swenson's apple crumble with vanilla won my taste though.

Jocie gleeful holding her. ERM BIRTHDAY SUNDAE?? LOL! The birthday sundae was given free by hard rock. So nice of them righttttttt.

Da jie Si Ying say she like this pic. Same lar! Alvin's got gd photography skills. HAHA

Missing: Weiting and Alvin the cameraman.

EHHH. i dunoe what's up with the OWNER and the CAT. LOLOL~

2006-07-19T02:17:00.000+08:00

im saddened.

1. Lost my purple hair clip.
2. Sleep deficiency. 4 hours a day recently
3. More things to chiong after Enterprise project deadline. DPD and 3 Presentations to settle
4. My eyebags are growing bigger and darker *LAUGH ALL YOU WANT EVIL PPLE
5. My room is in a super BIG MESS and i HATE to see messy rooms.
6. Almost broke.
7. My gums are bleeding profusely.
8. Am eating cup noodles / maggie mee everyday for @ least 1 meal.
9. Weather's damn hot and humid. I want rain for my sleeeeeeeeeeeep.
10. No time to play =(

signed,
GILA SIOKKIE

2006-07-18T02:03:00.000+08:00

Whats up with the girls i encounter recently. Half of them are mad. Maybe i should share with all of you the idiotic people i have met.

K there is one which really leaves me damn irritated. Super split personality bitch. In front of this guy she will tell him all kinds of things(some are reallie damn indecent) to make him jealous and try to get him back. Behind his back she will be bitching to everyone how heartless he is and how he cheated her. It's like she wants him but dun wan him kinda thing. It's just fcking irritating. Get a life. ARGH. I have so much to say about this girl but it's all damn private. Oh wells i give credit to your acting skills.

Another one is yet another bitch. Actually is 2 of them. Almost similar characters. Always trying to find trouble with me. Like duhz why can't guys like me? Lame? Just like what happened when i first joined mvp. Stupid bitches. If you really take pleasure in thinking you pwn me bad den go ahead. But make sure when u say it i'm not around. Don't act big and talk so much kok thinking im not arnd but actually im there.

Ok another is just a problem. I thought we were all happily playing together. But why did so much things pop up all of a sudden. Or issit that i am too ignorant to see that you weren't happie. From the start to me u looked happie and contented like this is all u ever wanted. Maybe i was wrong. But i hope everything will be fine among us.

i love caLz

2006-07-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

been to Tmall 3 times straight this week. My my. Im going to have a phobia of entering Tmall now...HAHA.

Headed for Tmall after sch with angelaa and ting. Ended up getting more purchases for myself nia =\ And my fetish for lacey tops is growing! Better end it soon before my bank a/c hits the $0 target. Thank you for ting bringing us to the deliciousiee prawn dumpling noodle place for dinner! Was satisfying and tasty. HAH go again nxt time k i dont care!

A reminder to my girlie pals. Lingerie sales is on now @ many departmental stores! Almost 50% for brands such as Triumph, Wacoal, Piere Cardin, Sorella, felancy and much more. Good buy kks! X)

Gonng hit the town to celebrate Jocie's birthday tml. Wheeeee! So excited...but the si weiting last min backed out. Someone please psycho her to go tml!

Projects are seriously draining my energy. I feel so tired just @ a glance of them...sighs. I missed the times when i can laugh like a hyena. Without bothering how others look @ mee. Tell mee jokes pls! :D

*humans aint as evil as what i thought so.

2006-07-14T02:32:00.000+08:00

I hate people hiding things from me. I hate it when theres are so many stories and you don't tell me anything which makes the stories seem so real. I hate it when people ask me to do something and then not want it. I hate people who don't appreciate what i have done for them. I hate people to expect more of me when i'm trying so hard already.

2006-07-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

I wonder if this is my home. I wonder which part of it is called home. Is it because i have a bed and my computer here that's why it is my home? Who ever cares about what i want to do. Who ever bothers about how i feel? That fear has been instilled since young. I hate it. I hate all of you. I don't ever wish to talk to anyone of you again. I just want to do what i want and i certainly will.

Sometimes death becomes a consideration. But i don't want to part with people close to my heart. There are still people i love in this world. Maybe one day when the person leaves my side will be the day i will leave this place forever. Anyways there isn't any purpose left.

2006-07-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

im sure many knew how disappointed i was.
For the yesterday's world cup match [Italy VS France].
So WHAT if Italy won the championship. I still feel that France did a good job yesterday!
Though Zidane's got a red card yesterday, he's nevertheless a capable captain of France team.
You go man!

But i do wonder if his head hurts anot. =X

wah jia lat jia lat LIAO! 10 more days to Enterprise deadline submission. It seemed like our group is not progressing on it. Something MUST be done. *GOD BLESS US PLEASE* And my issue presentation on this coming Thurs! Am not gonna prepare too much for it. I'll just crap my way through and GOOD LUCK to siokkie yeah LOL.

After that will be chionging of OB deadline. Then DPD deadline(TIAN AHH). Then DPD presentation. OB presentation. AND lastly, Enterprise presentation. Following that will be the Exams. How many? No idea. That's the pathetic life of a HTM student. T.T 1 week break and it will be the start of our SIP. Continuous working for 5 full months. THEN we are FREEEEE!! Yes free. But not exactly. Well....sighs.

Sometimes i just wished that i can get married by the age of 20. Lead a good life, work part time to contribute to the household income and spend the rest of the time doing what i want. Be the supportive woman behind her successful man kinda thing.

My wishful part of thinking, really. HAH

*For all the times I never said the things I should have, I thank you for all the times you understood.

2006-07-09T14:47:00.000+08:00

Our seafood platter for TWO shared with munmun. MUAHAHA! We cleared the whole pan though.

My dad's new pup - April! Damn cute lar. And very guai also. I like HER! *hugs april*

HAHA. the ugly side of her when she open her mouth. She's got a joker face! X)

a gloomy sat noon. It just rained...and ive got too much stuffs to complete so i gotta ROT at home with all the microsoft word documents and powerpoint. but RIGHT NOW im slacking away! Am gonna go out for awhile. Cant stand staying at home for another second..HAHA.

Though i missed yesterday's match...but i was glad that Germany won! with a score of 3:1. HAHA go France go! For tonight's World Cup Championship. ^^

2006-07-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

you know i'll always love you
and you know what i meant is true. =)

i'll wait for you to watch the sunrise with mee.
And i want you to be the happiest guy on earth for all the moments spent with mee.

*Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, falling in love with you was beyond my control.

2006-07-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

Cynnie's shifting house. Not sure where. Gonna house viewing on Sunday. My brother saw a house that he liked alot. But it seems to far to me =( All the way in Katong. Far far far =(

Anyways my placement is confirmed to be with The Fullerton Hotel Singapore. Ok i was damn excited and happy. What's more they offered me something good! Haha. The HR guy and the Front Office guy so happen to be from the same church as me. Fullerton's interview is very different from the Ritz. Ritz asked me like 101 questions till i had no saliva. Fullerton was a sweet 10 questions.

Oh wells. I will be attached to the rooms division on a rotating basics. So i get to play around in front office, concierge, guest relations and sales. Ok thats damn cool. Then the front office guy said i could start work anytime if i wanted to work part time. Anyways i can't wait to start my internship! Wheeeeeeee!

Oh ya. The eye i poked a few weeks ago is still damn red la. I have like eye drops, cream and pills to help cure it. Not really working =( Deaded.

2006-07-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

ive given my heart to the wrong person
A VERY wrong person.
No regrets, but wasted aint it.
All i can do is to bury my head in my pillow and cry.

return mee my heart.
I'll give it to its rightful owner - if i ever found him, no matter how long its gonna take.
:)

I dont feel like slping tonight. Perhaps i shall ton til the morning. And then head for school later on. Haven seen the beautiful sunrise for such a long time.

I shouldnt forget my purpose of living on this earth. To bring joy and happiness to people around mee. To lighten up their spirits when they are down, to give them support when they need one.
These are words from God...4 years ago. I've sidetracked for so long...its time to be back on tasks. HAHA

Of course, to cherish people who love mee all along, bearing with my nonsense and stuffs. I love you peeps too! For being there with mee. YOU know who you are...words cant express my gratitudes for the concern my friends and family has given to mee.

I shall top up my sleeping pills again. Its for a good cause...b4 i really turn myself into a zombie. I fear night times, as my emo feelings flow like a river...leading to nowhere. I needa SLEEP at night and to wake up fresh in the morning. I only want to know the strong siokkie who can survived through dramatic happenings and not the weakling siokkie who always cry when something crops up.

They say no matter how dark the night is, the sun always rises again ... I say lost love makes one realize that no matter how bright the day is, the sun will always set again.

*HaPpieMei.
07 07 2006

2006-07-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

i swear im gonna die any second from now.
Yeah my fever has subside gradually since yesterday night. UP downs UP downs.
But im suffering from sore eye, churning stomach, coldness, headache and BLAH BLAH.

sian, really sian. my eyes are gonna bleed from the sight of researches and books. I wonder how im gonna survive through the night. Especially when i'm too weak to walk about...

Siokkie you must get well!

im just gonna stone and face the wall. Being sick SUCKS.

2006-07-05T21:43:00.000+08:00

LOVE is just like the Butler's Tourism Area Life Cycle (TALC) Model.

Stage 1: Exploration
Happens when 2 individual started off as friends and get to know each other better.

Stage 2: Involvement
More communication between each other. A closer friendship bonds and involves some outing together as a group.

Stage 3: Development
Developing of feelings for each other. Probably kicks off by being together and hence the "HONEYMOON" period begins. Meeting each other everyday and bombing of smses are essential parts of your life. The period of time when you feel that love is sweet, and somehow wishes that moments spent together will stop @ that time.

Stage 4: Consolidation
A full fledge at rate of development. Other threats may come in at this point of time for instance: mistrust, misunderstandings, quarrels and such. Life revolves around break and patch.

Stage 5: Stagnation
The dangerous point of the life cycle. Love is going to lose its meaning between the 2 parties and they meet less often. Either party starts to find fault at the other and more efforts are needed to keep a relationship going.

Stage 6: Rejuvenation/Decline
Either both stays together or break up for good!

Now i know why im a HTM student. I should be doing my DPD issue presentation instead.

*whenlovehaslostitsmeaning.

2006-07-05T13:55:00.000+08:00

I think i'm going crazy. Been bad mood for quite some time. LOL. Save me. Those who kenna from me i'm sorry =P Still love you guys k.

2006-07-04T01:25:00.000+08:00

Looks like the hairband trend is back again. Keep bumping into girls on streets who got the same big and thick hairband as mee. zzz!! Ive got them long time ago...when vanity struck in secondary school times. HAHA

BUT NVM!! Mee and Angela got a pretty pretty polka dot big hairband 2dae! Mine was black and white while hers was red and white. HAHA we do look cute with it =X While Siying got her off-white hairband with a ribbon on it and ting got a white and rather big hairband @ the end of the day! She is so tempted by us lar. Wahahas. Jocie stick back to her tiny and small hairbands. WAHAHAHAHA girls. -.-!

Oh yar back to the main topic! Today was Shawn's birthday and we celebrated it for him @ Swensons. I had curry baked rice and it was good! The apple crumble which i koped from alvin was good too. So was the ice cream cake. GOOD GOOD. HAHA im miss greedy!

The Swenson staff helping to light the candles! So courteous of them to do that for us. HEH BUT there's only 9 candles?!! Supposed to have 1 more BIG candle. HAHA

2 Gleeful kids singing bdae song. LOOK! They are SO HAPPY. wahahahas =X The staffs in Swenson was singing 2gether too! Blasted the whole of swensons. LOL

Heh! Nice pic taken eh! A pity that gavin was parking his car when we are taking this pic 2gether. Damn late lar he!
From left: Jocie Shawn Alvin DaJie Ting Siokkie Angela Cleo
Missing: Gavin, Vic and Caiyun

Happie Birthday Shawn! Hope you like our gift!! *^^*

Don't say you love me unless you really mean it because I might do something crazy like believing it.

2006-07-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

humans are never satistifed.
Humans = Siokkie
Siokkie is never satisfied.
*sighs...

What must I do to be satisfied. Or what must others do to make mee satisfied. Why do I feel that everything's not going the way i want.

But now, what is it that i really want? I cant find my usual self lately.
And now. What's my usual self like?

suckers. im being contradicting again.
everyone hates the irritating and childish siokkie.

i hate it too =(

2006-06-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

i SO LOVE Four Leave pastries.
So cute so yummy so sweeeet!! AHHH. Just went to Tmall with ting and I bought 5 lil' pastries. Ate 2 on the spot and 3 of them is supposed to be my breakfast for tml.

And there's only 1 left for tml's breakfast =X Guess what happen to the other 2. HAHA

Library will be my 2nd home from wkend onwards. Gotta find books for my project researches and issue presentation. *faints! I SO HATE library.

I got back my French test and the Weiting got the same marks as mee in total, though different marks for each component. 42.5/60. Not too bad ehh?? i thought i will fail. WAHAHAHAS

And til today then i realised: only dahdah in the 5 jiemei hasnt changed. In terms of physical and character. SAME OLD DAH! LOL I shld post the old times of us together in the past. Bet everyone will laugh @ van's pic. =X

SHUCKS.

2006-06-29T00:40:00.000+08:00

Ruie's level 12 Stephie and Siokkie's level 11 Tinkerbell!! Cute RIGHT. Pple more $$ so pet tail got 1 ribbon lar =x

Hard to train Tinkerbell. -.-

And nosensical as well??! LOL! Aint my maple yellow bandana nice X)

Yes, its us again. HAHA

Maple's best couple screenshot =X

2006-06-28T16:54:00.000+08:00

Flame flame and more flame. Whatever k. Your last line states it all. I won't say much argue much whine much. Whatever. Nothing can change anyways. You said it that way yourself. To think a 15 year old tried talking me back into things. To think i actually was falling for his words. Whatever ok. I have my reasons for my cashflow problems. Have you ever thought maybe i was saving for something you shouldn't know? Everything i do is wrong to you. Shhesh i should just shaddup.

2006-06-28T00:00:00.001+08:00

Shit damnit. I said stop picking on me. Stop nagging @ me. Stop pushing everything on me. It takes 2 hands to clap. What do you want to achieve from this? Glory? Fine. My fault la my fault la. I don't need you complaining to me about my cash flow. Care about your own. Why complain about mine? Do i in any way look like a guy who need to pay for a girl? So stop picking on me damnit. Too many things i want to say but i shall just shhh.

Oh wells. I just got my pay. Soccer betting is good also. Gonna go shopping on saturday with Siok!! Wheeeeeeee! So happie. But it's gonna be a long busy week. Gotta work for GGC Nation Wars. Christiana & co and coming tomorrow. Grannie's death anni on thurs. I need to club aka drink one day. Sherica's birthday on Friday. GXL as well. Sums up my week. But i really look forward to shopping for new clothes =)

Sheesh. Siok say's she's demanding. I think i'm more demanding =( But somehow there is something i want in life. Everyone has a dream of what their prince charming to be. Maybe it was my fault in not knowing you better before rushing into the relationship. But this also says something for itself. It's better to hurt now then to realise in future that this is not what you truly want.

I won't say that whatever happened is not my fault. But i chose this path to play. You might not approve of it. I wanted support but there was none. It would be nice to have someone watching me play each and every match. I would appreciate it. However i guess i'm not spoilt enough to get whatever i want. Things might not go my way like this incident. I enjoy playing with the girls alot. Not to mention the guys as well. To all of you it's just crazy gaming. To us it's about friendship and fun. It's just yet another hobby turned profession not so pro though.

I don't know. Maybe i should just leave all these thoughts aside. It's not going anywhere anyways. I'm happy living the life i am living away from the life everyone expects of me. Let me be. I would bring along with me things i will remember for life. When i was happie. When i was sick. I guess not every ending is a sad one.

2006-06-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

couldnt sleep. Nth better to do( nah that''s not true. I CHOSE not to do them)
i'll just make dow ith some craps. HAH

1.Do you know anyone's friendster password?--> Nope. Im never clever enuff to guess it.
2. Do you think ur love life right now will last long?-->hahas. Hopefully?
3. Are u an emo person?--> Very. I rry very easily!
4. If u had one last breath to say something to someone u love what would u say?--> See you in heaven?
5. Do you believe in love at first sight?--> Never.
6. Ever felt so jealous of your friend?--> Nah. Jealous of What??
7. What was the last thing you did?--> Laundry. Tons of it
8. Who is right next to you?--> Mikey
9. Who was the last person you ate with?--> My sisters?
10. How many times was your page been view?--> No idea. Couldnt be bothered to check LOLs
11.How's the weather right now?--> humid and dry
12.Last person you called today?--> van
13. Last person who called you?--> goh ming rui
14. Last song you sang?--> sarang heyo
15. Last time you danced?--> like just now?? HEH
16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?--> Maybe i did...years ago
17. Smoke?--> Not now
18. Dumped someone before?--> Yepp
19. Been really stressed before?--> Occasionally. LOL
20. Faked being sick to miss school?--> Always?? Geez =X
21. What time did you wake up today?--> 1030am
22. Current taste?--> Hot - I ate curry.
23. Do you like the person who sent you this?--> No one send mee. I copy and patse de LOL
24. What are you wearing right now?--> Tees and shorts
25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?--> Never. Want ask jiu ask mah
26. What is the first thing you notice about theopposite sex?--> Hair
27. Where are u now?--> Home
28. WHAT DATE IS IT?--> 27 June 2006
29. DID U GO SOMEWHERE YESTERDAY?--> School?? Yar. school.

JJ's concert was fantastic!! Good vocals he have. Only that the audiences aint active enough. Com'on its a concert man!! Our seat areas only have 3 siao ginnas screaming(guess who). LOL And perhaps some girls at the back who shouted when AH DU appeared. what the heck?! And lightsticks are FUN! LOL

Yesterday was our 19th month anniversary. do you still remember? i doubt so.
It feels weird not celebrating each month's anniversary. Though i always do in the past...
Perhaps i demand too much. I always do. For everything.

To conclude - im a very demanding person with high expectations. But im easily satisifed. HAHA
nono, im a contradicting person. Fear mee, do you.

*iwillloveyou
andforevermore

2006-06-27T02:50:00.000+08:00

3 recent happenings which demoralised mee RIGHT NOW

1. Ive got 4 freaking reflections to complete. Not forgetting researches for 8 reflections. WTF??!
2. MiLuBing out!! Shldnt be Man Tou out instead.
3. Im suppa duppa hungry. =\

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timetosleep.

im turn whackky! RAA

2006-06-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

I don't see how this can go on? I don't see how me changing can save the situation anymore. I don't see how things can be normal again. It hurts but i'm a dodger. I'm avoiding the pain. Living in my own world. Another tight schedule week. I guess i will be fine with no space for my mind to wander.

2006-06-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to say. I give up easily. Enough said? I'm stressed. I want to stop crying. Let it end. Maybe the tears will stop as well.

2006-06-24T00:49:00.000+08:00

Long day @ the Ritz Carlton today. Had all my interviews in one. I tell you that second interview is crazzzzzzzzzzy. Not just crazy is uber crazy. There is like 101 questions. When it was the end the lady was like "Since you're intern i think don't need to ask the rest". It's like there were more? =.=" Oh wells. But it was a good experience. Now i know what to expect in future. Or else i will just cry in future if i get so many questions!

Oh yeah. Then i waited. Agnes briefed me about the positions available and was complaining that TP didn't update their information at all. There was only f&b and GRO available. Then she called the GRO who can't take me. She offered me the RC Club. But i can only sign for RC Club in August T.T Then she recommended Chihuly Lounge. I don't know whether to take it or not? Maybe i should wait for Fullerton or wait for the dateline and source for my own placement -.-" I really want to work in the rooming department instead of f&b. Anyways had a small talk with Zul about the lounge. I'm not really sure if that's what i want to do ~>.<~ I guess i will just take a few days to decide. Afterall imma lady. Fickle minded you see =D

Anyways everyone was telling me how horrible Agnes is. How arrogant she is bla bla bla. Maybe i'm weird but i found her really nice. Even though the wait was.. long. And it also feels good to step back in. Seeing so many familiar faces. Spoke a bit to the captains. They all still look the same only the change of uniforms. The uniforms looks better i should say.

Oh wells. Back to my other life. My life is busy. Busy. Very busy. GGC Nation tourney on Monday. GXL tomorrow. Schools starts on monday. OB Outline due on Wednesday. I don't really like international studens. Blahz. No initiative. Blahz k. I need some excitment. ~>.<~

Save me.

2006-06-22T02:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just dread coming home. I don't even know if this is a place called home. Everything i do is not right. Everything i'm good @ is not recognised. Everything is all about my brother. Who ever cares about how i feel? I don't enjoy studying. I hate studying. I don't want to study. Yet i'm trying. You know how much pressure i'm under? Go to U go to U go to U. I'm scared too. I'm barely scraping through.

My brother is clever. My brother is successful. My brother is hardworking. Maybe he took it all away from me. I'm nothing. Nothing like him. I am trying really hard now to get my grades up. I don't wanna get a degree. Not to say a masters. I wanna start my own business. =( I'm not an A grade student who tops everything. But i'm really trying.

I wonder who under this roof approves of me gaming. Probably no one. I'm happy. I love my friends as well. We all have so much fun. My schedule's real tight. I'm trying to make time for everything and everyone. Please stop forcing me. Team FForGND has came really far. I thought we could just get top 15 or 16. Now we're tied @ 2nd place. A big achievement. No one to encourage or congratulate me. I'm now part of CaLz of [X3M]. No one cares. One of the 16 teams who got invited to play against philippines in the ggc tourney. No one cares. Playing with CaLz for CAPL Summer Season. No one cares. Ok i sound nerd.

I have so much more to say. But i guess i should just end here. Something to make myself happy.
"However, if you were to scrutinize the teams below, there are 2 other teams who have maintained a clean sheet. They're none other than Gamers Inc and FForGND, in which both teams consists of some of the best players around. It's no surprise that they too are near the top of the table."

2006-06-19T01:56:00.000+08:00

Seemed like loads of pple is celebrating Father's Day this year. Glanced through others' blog and alot kinda enjoy this day.
But yet i've nv ever celebrated Father's Day in my life
Reason - He don't deserved it.

sighs. How i envy others having super nice and gentle dad, unlike mine.
Who couldnt care more about his 3 kids. And his ex - wife.
All he want is $$$, $$$$ and more $$$$$.
And probably his whole life to go womanizing at the expense of losing his 2nd wife.

Ive always pictured a happy family in this scenerio-

Dad drove the whole family to botanic garden
Mom preparing the picnic ground, setting up the place and the food.
My 2 sisters playing frisbee/ catching
While MEE fooling around with my golden retriever and my grey stripes cat.

HAHA. You may have heard this from mee like umpteen times
BUT i know that its something that will NEVER come true.
NEVER.

I hate my dad. I hate him.
I hate him for breaking my mom's heart.
I hate him for leaving us.
I hate him for getting another wife.
I hate him for wanting to sell our house.
I hate him since young when he always change my cartoon channel on tv to other sex scene channels.
I hate him for hating cats.
I hate him for giving up on his dogs when he's sick of them.
I hate him for being so heartless.
I hate him for making my mom worked so hard for the 3 of us.
I hate him for being my dad.
I hate him for inheriting his temperant character.

*phew. Finally let out this gush of anger. I promised myself that i'll never be with a guy with unbearable and similar traits like my dad. And i hope my mom will remarry a good guy so that she can be happy and my dreams can come true. =x

In Genting!

The view outside our room. Below is the construction site -.-! But buay pai lar got the artistic feel!

Siokkie and Mingrui. With WET hair! X)

Another pic of us. Notice my eyebrows are pretty dark @ that time...wahahas. It has faded off by now!

WOO WOOO wahh wahH! Tickets tickets and MORE tickets at the back!! *smiles gleefully

Our supper feast - kenny rogers with 3 side dish, muffins, and coffee bean blended.

Diao diaooo. What a face. @ the pizzahut! Muahahahas.

This is how he enjoy his holiday - wrapping himself and SLEEP! o.0

His newly bought slippers! But i wore it 1st. HEH-

My magical carousel! Lurve it lurve it! So enchanting...Though it looks pretty dark here.

2nd day of supper in hotel rm - his pizza and starbucks coffee blended, my cup noodle, kfc whipped potato and starbucks raspberry blended tea. WOOTS! im so poor thing to eat cup noodle while the other enjoy his life. T.T

Siokkie in the cold cold Genting! X)

Our prized possession - 2 fluffy soft toy dogs!! Got them by exchanging the tickets in the arcade. Mine's the 1 on the left. Cuter than the other 1 =X

A simple fare cooked by us in his house. Had this meal while watching Eight Below with his brother. Wahahahas

Cookie baking in Jocie house

The ingredients! TAA - DAA

And so the mixing process begins. Our dear jocie doesnt have a mixer/beater @ home...so we use something else to substitute. WAHAHA

Getting ready to shape the dough.

As you can see, 1st batch was CHAO DA. =x BUT! Siokkie and Jocie did not let this happen again! The others were pretty good. Though joce kept complaining that its ugly. While i thought i was quite nice LOL

More cookies. NO CHAO DA! There's 2 flavours - Oatmeal choc chip and choc chip cookies. Bake in the oven which is not oven...i should have taken down THAT equipment's picture. So fascinating lar HAHA

WHEEEEEEEEEE. The end product! 1 for Ruie and the other 1...i better dont say it here. In case i got whack by SOMEBODY lar. *zips!

And so we had fun baking cookies together. Our next aim is to bake CAKE! Yes, cake. I'll be a successful houewife and career woman in the future! HAH. But i needa learn how to cook 1st. As what others always say: Fill the stomach of your guy and he will never find someone else.

So i MUST gambatte!! More for Ruie to be guinea pig in the future. And he has gd comments about the cookies!! YAYYY.

Better start doing my individual tasks for project now. The next raa raa thing to come: JJ's CONCERT!!

i miss 4e5 pple. The wu jie mei, the wu xiong di, my lessies, and the irritating ones. 3 years have gone and memories are still clearly etched in my heart.

*nothing's gonna change my love for you.

2006-06-17T13:11:00.000+08:00

Siokkie is back from Genting! Muahahahas
Was a FUN TRIP....many laughters here and there.
With the exception of being petrified when boarding the cable car
and looking down @ the 100 million year old rain forest with the fear of plunging down.

We did not went to KL though we wanted to initially. Cabbing down from Genting is rather ex now as compared to last year. And besides that, Genting has much more to explore now!! We practically hogged the arcade, pigged ourselves in KFC pizzahut kenny roggers starbucks coffeebean buffets ice cream candy floss cup corn and MANY MANY MORE!!

Damn. I must be 100kg now. And Ruie must be 200kg now. =x

Caught X MEN 3 in the Genting cineplex. WAH didnt know its such a fabulous show!! *ratings: 9.5/10!* In the past I only recognised Wolverine and Storm. NOW?? i know ALL of them!! HEH HEH well im imagining myself having supernatural powers....*drools. For those who havent seen it yet, GO and CATCH it!! One of the best movies i've ever seen this year. Much better than the crappie Da Vinci Code. X)

More pics of us will be UP by tml. Haven really had the time to upload them...Gotta work, do my projects and meet up with my babes real soon!! And im desperate to go ice skate in this freaking HOT weather. Genting's damn cooling kaes! i LIKE! =)

i shall not let my memories haunt mee again. Im really happie with my current life, be it school, friendship or relationship. And im still gonna pursue my happiness in my dreams...i wanna do a job related to pets in the future. So how is it gonna link to the course im taking now?? Pet travel Agency?? nono. Pet Spa?? nono. Pet Hotel?? Maybe. Pet plane?? HAHA.

I gotta stop my CRAP. Dreading work on a SATURDAY...no bonus = SAD SIOKKIE!! And after that will be my time to chiong a LIL' of Maple. Siokkie's gonna LEVEL UP today! <3~>

*with you around, my fear subsides.

2006-06-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

First of all. Congrats to my ting er for getting into CAAS! See...you can do it de. Happie for youuu! X)

Secondly. Im going Genting/KL tml! 3d2n trip...will be back on Thurs. Contact mee on thurs night if neccesary. =) Hopefully it will be a fun trip this time round.

Lastly. Go Go Mi Lu Bing!! I like them! =D

Pics are up. Credits to Caiyun for the photos and Alvin for being our cameraman. LALALA!

On the way to Marina Bay. Everyone else is busy except Jociee. LOL

Zhan Fa Huo Hai Xian : Long Xia Da Guo Xiao Nu Hai!

LOL?? the xtra behind.

SO UNGLAM! I BU REN SHI the pple inside!! Really po huai xing xiang man LOL. But ive got no idea what we were laughing about. Whoever took this pic HAS TO DIE =X

siokkieling and Jocelyn! =)

4 jie mei. 4 duo hua =x Jocie's lousy CAM. Look @ the pic quality and you KNOW

Obviously, Caiyun's got a better camera. The girls with oily face after BBQ-ing. ARGHHH!

ehhhh. wth?!! Surrounded by Siao Char Bors. LOL Gavin and Alvin is not in the family pic. =X

Close - up pic of US. Alvin's daa camera MAN!

Our mess. Our 12 bucks!

Daytona craze. Ting hiding away behind...while Vic and Siying MIA?

Last but not least. TAA DAA! Alvin our cameraman who always SHUN the cameras. LOL

*chocolate^addict. SHIT!

2006-06-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

I better do a brief update on my recent happenings
before more stuffs come on my way and i forgot the previous events that took place. =X

hmm so yar! Had my OB test on wed. SUCK MAN, really it does. I got my facts wrong so im kinda screwed. Went shopping with the girls (Jocie Siying and Weiting) while the 2 guys(Shawn and Alvin) roamed around as well. Our dear jocie spent a BOMB on her levi's jeans and her angelic necklace which is so her lar! And i bought a pair of shoes too. quilted black shoes. *SIOKKIE WHY YOU NEVER CONTROL YOURSELF!* oh well.

We gai gai-ed around tmall and century and i realised that the 4 girls(us lar) have good sense of fashion! OF COURSE LAR =X we MUST hang out more often for our shopping therapy trips! HEH X) Met the Victor and Caiyun @ tampines mrt and off for steamboat we go. All was present except for the Gavin who got a date. I mean outing. HAHA

Steamboat @ the Zhen Fa Huo Hai Xian was great! Fabulous. Delicious and succulent prawns *drooools Had fun with my gang of friends while bbq-ing the food! And SO HENG i saw the guy(probably 4 years older than mee) who was jio-ing mee during my secondary school times @ that place too. HAHA....avoid lar! Siokkie only knows how to shun and avoid =X I LOVE the CRABS! So juicy and bouncy. But the poor Siying ate the not so good ones...so she was complaining away lar =x Had a game of daytona b4 we left...wah THRILLING lar! Very long time no play such thing already. I was 4th in place(can get 3rd 1 lor) out of 8 cars. XIANG DANG NIAN i was the Daytona Queen can! Any1 in NAS would have known that *BHB* X)

Thank you Jocie Weiting Siying Caiyun Victor Shawn and Alvin!! When's our JB seafood feast?? hehes *^^* Pics to be up soon...after Caiyun send them to mee~

Rebonded my hair the next day. Wasnt very straight though..but Ruie's aunt took notice of it and she ask mee to return to her shop next week to do it again! 60 bucks with 3 treatments and guarantee straightness. Worth it hor? ^^

Worked on Friday as usual. Jokes with scoopz siao pple. Worked on Sat morning as well...and later went over to Ruie's another aunt the beautician shop(nxt to his another aunt's hair salon) to do my eyebrow embroidery and facial. HAHA NOT PAIN one!! And i did not CRY okie =X Be prepared to see my very pretty eyebrows soon! Siokkie FINALLY have eyebrows. LOLOL~

And Sunday which is TODAY, is spent in Ruie's house playing tons of Maple with him and his brather , not forgetting to pack his bag for our Genting/KL trip. -.-! His mewmew very naughty lar! Bite and bite and bite. RAAA! Did my part for project already....a load of my chest b3fore heading for my little holiday! YAYYYYY.

Alright lar. End of this draggy entry! Wait for mee to return from Malaysia and i'll be SUPER DUPER busy!!

my TO DO list during the 2 week term break T.T

1. Project researches for the 3 subject. AHHHhhHHhhHHhhhhh
2. Business Entrepreneur Reflection journal. wtf! left 2 more.
3. Work here and there for my additional expenses.
4. Bake cookies with Jocie and play badminton with jocie and gavin!
5. Jb seafood feast with the gang
6. Rebond my hair AGAIN
7. Tidy my pig sty
8. Play maple
9. Fish and co with scoopz pple. If its still on...
10. JJ concert! WHEEEEEEE. *excited excited!
11. Ice skating with Ruie
12. Kbox!
13. Cozybay with ting.

And alot alot more...JIU MING AHHH. *cries

*lovelieling aka lurviemei

2006-06-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

From what i see you are doing well in life. Maybe i'm too busy. Maybe it's me alright. You seem to have a new click with someone. Maybe it's just me. I think i'm crazy.

2006-06-08T13:48:00.000+08:00

I just want to say thank you for everything. I don't think i should say anymore. Let things settle down itself. Let things take its turn itself. Maybe it's the age.

2006-06-06T01:57:00.000+08:00

HEHHHH. @ ruie's hse now. Enjoying myself like a princess X)

What i had for my meals:
1. KFC BIG feast
2. Black Pepper crab bought by his Mum
3. Hawaiin Pizza with many many spicy drumlets
4. Home - cook lunch by him ^^

TELL MEE.
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SLIM DOWN!!??!!
temptation of MOUTH - SAVOURING food never ceased to haunt mee =X

Opps. Have been playing maple ABIT more than i should. Blame it on the New Map Ludibrium. Some of the Screenshots taken....long time back and recently de. I wanna take wif Jocie and JR and TIAN! MUAHAHAHAHAS....

@ Orbis. NICE! =D <3>

Dodomage lvl 65 ice/lightning mage - Siokkie lvl 55 fighter -Ruie lvl 61 cleric

Us with our BOH LIAO expressions...WAHAHA.

Act cute lar! Noticed my very ke ai de cat ears on my hair?? X)

Siokkie and the Goh Brathers. =) DONT THEY LOOK ALIKE! LOL

Hmmm....Shi Yun's wedding with icyluv. Spot MEE!

The Married Couple - Siokkie and Ruie.

Look @ the dumb hector. -.-! *snickers

Siokkie and MunMun @ Shiyun's wedding!

LOL really nth better to DO.

He is jealous of my pair of cat earrr! =X

Blissfully in Maple. HEH

Erm. Time to study OB yar? LOL 3-4pm test on Wed! Gonna study 2gether with cyn tml IF she is able to wake up lar. PLS bring my genting dining vouchers along cynn! =PP
After test its our STEAMBOAT feast!! Anticipating it...the more the merrier lar. And following that will be my genting/kl trip. And THEN you all will see a FAT Siokkie. BOOHOOHOOS =(

*stay focus, stay concentrated. RAA!

2006-06-03T18:57:00.000+08:00

just returned home from work. Super tiring day @ work although its like only 6 hours lar! Probably didnt sleep well last night.

Power supply @ Scoopz trip like 3 times just now therefore there's 3 sudden blackouts which lasted less than 3 seconds. MUAHAHA it kinda stunned our customers though. And of course, ourselves. Our dear boss freaked out 3 times too =X

Seng Hee and his girl - friend(which I think otherwise) dropped by Scoopz today. WAHAHAHA. They look like the perfect item. You know, match make from Heaven sort. Only that they aint together YET =X

Ah Mun gave mee a FCUK frangrance her edition! *beams! Her jiejie is working in those fragrance retail shop and she get to bring perfumes home for FREE( something like rewards for good performance?) and since they ardy have quite a number of branded perfumes @ home ardy, thus THIS is mine. =) Saw it @ normal perfume retail shops and its like 120++ bucks for such big bottle. BAHHH! Thanks ger!

Taa - daa! Mine. <3!

And cynnie gave mee my belated birthday pressie....its a $50 Mango gift voucher! YEAHHH time for my shopping spreeeee. Mango's having sales right? *^^* Thanks babe for my gift! i LOVE you! =X

Who wanna go Mango gai gai with MEE?? =)

Went for Steffi's bdae chalet yesterday night(as mention by cyn). Had fun EATING and WATCHING some parts of X MEN lar! Great to catch up with HTM pple there....(almost all the pple there are from HTM and we know them de. LOL) Hope Steffi like her bdae present from us! I personally like it alot =X HOR cyn?!!

Happie Happie 19th Birthday to Steffi!!! =) You and your Bf looks so loving together lar. WAHAHAHA rmb send us the pics we took @ ur chalet!

Saw a pair of shoe which i kinda fancy it(AGAIN) and i feel like buying it. OOPS! Im suppose to save $$$...and ive got like 100 pairs of shoes ardy(mabbe abit lesser? =X)! But i seemed to wear the same shoe to school and basically, for everything. HAHAs....NVM SIP is coming. I can make full use of wearing heels then HEH. Maybe i'll ask ruie to spon mee HALF?? X)

OH YAR! im supposed to take a pic of Ting. She looks SO DAMN CUTE with her cheena dolly hair cut lar! Nvm nxt time. Right now i can only show you a pic of her doggie puffy. =D

Ting's doggie Puffy! VERY very kawaiiiiii. *^^*

i promised to study my OB on Mon and Tues!! last minute study always work better for mee. Off to eat PIZZA!! Muahahas...bonsoir!

*when you meet that special someone, you'll understand why it didn't work with anyone else.

2006-06-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

Back from Steffi's birthday. Simple but niceeee! Coz i know like everyone? Haha!! Anyways. HAPPIE BIRTHDAY STEFFI!!!

Oh anyways. Recently encountered this crazy bitch. What i can say is really thick skin bitch. So poor she can't even afford a mirror to look @ how pathetic she is. LOL. Whatever she said just made me like lolololololmao? I never thought anyone could be so thick skin and imaginative. Grow up kid. To think you're older than me. Simply jokes. For now i will just be a little more cautious. LOL.

I'm bored and i found this on friendster. So yeah enjoy =x
MY BEDROOM (:

How many windows do you have in your room? A two panel window and a small side window.
What is the color of your walls? It's uber dark blue~
Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet? Ceramic tiles =(

Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom? In my roooom =P
What size bed do you have? Single!
What is your bedroom view out the window(s)? The curtains are always drawn. I scared see ghost outside? =X

Do you have the following in your room:
[ ] deck
[x] cell phone
[x] chair
[x] book shelf
[x] dresser
[ ] TV
[x] Computer
[ ] bean bag
[x] pictures
[x] large mirror
[x] bed
[x] stuffed animal(s)
[ ] drumset
[ ] clothes on the floor
[ ] plastic flamingo
[x] guitar(s)
[ ]lava lamp
[ ] smoke detector
[x] piano/keyboard
[x] locking door
[ ]can of soda
[x] bottle of water
[ ] a blacklight
[ ] something about your own country
[x]medals
[x] trophies
[x] awards
[ ] water polo ball
[ ] soccer ball
[x] volleyball
[x] basketball
[ ] softball stuff
[ ] track gear
[] frisbee
[x] beach ball
[ ] football
[] Hockey stuff
[ ] lacrosse stick
[x] cds
[ ] sofa/futon...
[x] bottles of liquor
[ ] flag
[ ] stop sign/any sign
[ ] caution tape
[ ] paintball gun
[ ] airsoft gun
[ ] Real Gun
[ ] Cigarettes
[ ] Snowboard
[ ] Wakeboard
[ ] Skateboard
[x] Stereo

2006-06-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

Pple often asked mee where did i get my apparels from. More of the tops.
And so i answered subtly "Oh, This Fashion lor."

and they'll gasped loudly and shook their heads in disbelief. LOL
This fashion aint that bad lar. Considering i've their membership cards and their clothes are rather cheap - mostly less than 20 bucks. That's so MEE!
Their trends are going UP too. @ least they have clothes from ALANO. Designs are improving, though there's a period of time i DARE NOT step into This Fashion cos their clothes are so UGLY. sucks to the core man!

my deadly confessions: I just spent 60+++ bucks in This Fashion! Was 80+++ bucks de...but had 20% discount for the month of my BIRTHDAY. MUAHAHAHA

Oh no, shopaholic siokkie is backkkk! T.T and my bank a/c's drying up very SOON. Its time to reflect. HAHA i'm going shopping with ting tml...i better put my atm card @ HOME.

Im feeling guilty now. Supposingly to join joce weiting shawn & co. for steamboat this Friday but i forgot that im going for Steffi's birthday chalet on the same day itself!! Dui bu qi da jia...siokkie feels very bad! BUT seafood feast still on anyway. ;P

I'll be working on Sat @ the SAME OLD PLACE....needa earn more $$$ to cover up my terribly HIGH expenses! And i finally realised im so HARD to maintain. HAHA someone must be regretting away...HEH.

Went to take a look @ somebody's blog and HAHA. What goes round comes round...you'll get what you deserved @ the end of the day. Its just too bad that you offended mee and mistaken mee as well.

Yay yay yaaaay! gohmingrui promised to cook for mee on Sunday. I want a decent and delicious meal okie!

back to edit the project. i wanna orh orh de...YAWNS. I pon my doctor appointment today. HOPE they will never call mee again X)

*siaoginna.

2006-05-30T12:08:00.000+08:00

It seems like it's all coming down to me. It all seems like it's a one sided thing. It all seems like my fault. It seems like theres a clash in interest. A big bad clash. The future seems so faded. I don't know what to think. Left out is not a feeling. The feeling. I don't know how to describe anymore.

2006-05-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

i guessed im falling in lurvee too deeply
which aint a good thing either.

My mum often tells mee not to get involve too much in love
you tend to get hurt pretty often
i guess its kinda true.

i better show myself @ the doctor's tml.
Doctor called mee for appointment for my lbp.
Im feeling kinda weak recently...for fear that signs of blackout is back
Hope my lbp doesnt decrease any further; im ardy unhealthy enough.

Its gonna be hardcore chionging of projects recently...
im getting sick sick sick.
Back to the immense concentration for my report.

*cant help feeling this way-

2006-05-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

you made my day purrrrfect. =)

thank you for
heating up the water for my bath
da bao my favourite prawn noodles with soup
making the potato chips and the kan dang strips which taste exactly like my mum's
guiding mee in maple ludibrium
accompanying mee to gai gai around the pasar malam
sending mee til Jurong East mrt even though you had a stomach ache =x
feeding mee non stop like a pig

if everyday remains like this...i'll be the happiest girl in the universe.
Told you im easily satisfied =ppp

i seriously need help in my french.
Im blabbering nonsense instead of french...JIU MING AH
and my test is like. this wed! *faints.
siokkie siokkie...play your maple after the term break lar! NOT NOW.

im gonna rebond my hair soon! Cynnie, i think its time for mee to drag you down to town. X)
its the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE okie!!

*drowning myself in the melancholy notes.

2006-05-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

Only when the last tree has died and the last river been poisoned and the last fish been caught will we realise that we cannot eat money. Cree Indian, 1909.

aint this sentence meaningful huh. Was quoted in a tourism webby while researching on it. And actually, eco-tourism proved to be a danger to the animals IF the tourists aint responsible and they just go round hunting the animals.

I THINK THEY ARE THE ONES TO BE SHOT TO DEATH.

Ahh yar, i was accepted into Tradewinds for SIP. Thank God, i wouldnt wanna go for interviews. I CAN FINALLY REBOND MY HAIR! *cos go interviews needa tie hair. MUAHAHA A load of my shoulder, definitely. Except that someone's gotten same company as mee and i didnt like her as much. Well, *shrugs.

I've finally BOOKED my 3d2n genting trip! Get it done and over with it. No hassles no worries...and we'll be going down to KL as well. Prolly on the 2nd day?? we shall see as the day comes.

Everything on my mind's about DA NANG, DA NANG and DA NANG. *whines
I dont wanna know anything else about it! NOT ANYMORE-

My dad's got a rude daughter.
She doesnt wanna acknowledge people around him
She doesnt even wanna acknowledge her dad.

i miss MEWMEW! X)

* bu ke si yi.